It's not that I wasted my time

[Pikacel]

It's that I'll start something and drop it after 3 months

Then a year later I realise I could've done so much that year. I keep realising I need to change and making the first steps but it never materialises into anything long term. This is fucking torture. It's always too late by the time I realise

Fucking hell

 

[Animecel2D]

Did you start having sex and then dropped it after 3 months?

 

[zd60]

I like wasting time

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I like wasting time

 

[kay']

Keep hustlin

 

[Pikacel]

Bro how I can I fuck up something so basic and easy? Why do I fail every year of my life and end up coming out the same?

Am I treating my life like it's a joke? How else can I consistently ldar for 9 months when I know I'm ruining my life by doing so? How else can I consistently go 'eh who cares what's the point' and give up on everything without even trying or following through

There's a chance I get kicked out of university and then what do I do? Just wagecuck when I am too retarded to even find a McJob? When I am so lazy I'll leave voicemails and emails from agencies unread for weeks? Should I try to start uni all over again at 22? What the fuck am I doing

I am a fat slob with no friends, no life fucking forget about girls that's unachievable anyway and jerking off is enough for me.

I can't trust myself to do anything long term so I guess I'll be like this at fucking 32 or 42

 

[Pikacel]

I don't even hate myself this is worse

I am DENYING myself a chance at basic SELF ESTEEM

This is worse than self hatred. FAR worse