For my whole life i always considered the possibility of starting a family a "when" rather than an "if". Because before in my blue pilled haze I would just assume everyone started a family and that it was just something that happened to everyone regardless. But now after realizing the black pill you know its an "if" and thats still stretching the possibility of it happening. Ive also heard of a decent number of oldcels who have never married or had kids, so if those oldcels couldnt do it back then when it was 'easier' by default then how am i suppose to accomplish that outside of betabux? Its just a stark realization that i could very well end up completely alone in the future and my outcome may or may not be entirely in my control.
