It's Over It's getting worse

[copecopter]

I don't know what's worse - my inceldom or the fact my father's narcissism caused him to make decisions that only served him. I don't have a job, I can't get employed legally because I live in a foreign country with really tight labor laws.

I have no assets in my home country and this status quo is going to stay until my father dies and only then I will have the option of changing my life circumstances.

I am 27 years old KKHV, friendless, jobless, and lifeless with arthritis and severe ND and medication-resistant depression.

My father is going or is in his 90s now. My mother is mentally ill as well and vents about her miserable life to me 24/7.

If my father never moved out of my home country I would've graduated sooner (had a traumatic event that made me lag behind 5 years academically).

I would've found a job. Probably moved out and would have been the boss of my own life.

But even the psychiatrist shames me for my father's narcissism. Says I ought to kiss his boot for so long as I live under his roof. WELL BITCH HE GAVE BIRTH TO ME, FORCED ME TO LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE I AM INVOLUNTARILY UNEMPLOYED AND I SWEAR IN MY 27 YEARS OF LIFE I HAD NEVER HAD A FUN DAY.

What to do? There is no easy way for me to end it all. All methods I can do are really hard, so I won't bother. I am a coward, and if there's no easy way out I am not taking it. I already feel like it's over.

Idk what to do man.

 

[IWWorkER]

Which country are you in ?

 

[copecopter]

Which country are you in ?

Not going to get specific - Middle Eastern.

 

[IWWorkER]

Middle Eastern

Brutal

 

[H U N T E R]

I don't know what's worse - my inceldom or the fact my father's narcissism caused him to make decisions that only served him. I don't have a job, I can't get employed legally because I live in a foreign country with really tight labor laws.

I have no assets in my home country and this status quo is going to stay until my father dies and only then I will have the option of changing my life circumstances.

I am 27 years old KKHV, friendless, jobless, and lifeless with arthritis and severe ND and medication-resistant depression.

My father is going or is in his 90s now. My mother is mentally ill as well and vents about her miserable life to me 24/7.

If my father never moved out of my home country I would've graduated sooner (had a traumatic event that made me lag behind 5 years academically).

I would've found a job. Probably moved out and would have been the boss of my own life.

But even the psychiatrist shames me for my father's narcissism. Says I ought to kiss his boot for so long as I live under his roof. WELL BITCH HE GAVE BIRTH TO ME, FORCED ME TO LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE I AM INVOLUNTARILY UNEMPLOYED AND I SWEAR IN MY 27 YEARS OF LIFE I HAD NEVER HAD A FUN DAY.

What to do? There is no easy way for me to end it all. All methods I can do are really hard, so I won't bother. I am a coward, and if there's no easy way out I am not taking it. I already feel like it's over.

Idk what to do man.

Bro, that sounds heavy as fuck. I can’t even imagine how suffocating it must feel to be stuck in that position, dealing with strict laws, health issues, and that kind of environment at home all at once. It’s completely valid that you feel exhausted. Don't let that psychiatrist get to your head either, they clearly don't understand the reality of your situation.
Stay strong, bro keep holding on

 

[Renegade#1]

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