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I turn 42 in a couple days.
I’m just going to my parents house for the day.
The usual birthday cake and watching a movie thing I do every year.
I have no girlfriend, of course. Not only that but I have no friends.
No one but my mom even cares if I live or die.
I’d like to say that it doesn’t bother me.
But I’m in pain. A deep emotional pain piercing through my soul.
I understand how other incels have been broken down by these circumstances.
I don’t even know what keeps me going. I have no reason to go on.
But I will not break. I want to live on, to carry on and move forward.
Every day that I live is a day that I have defied society.
I’m just going to my parents house for the day.
The usual birthday cake and watching a movie thing I do every year.
I have no girlfriend, of course. Not only that but I have no friends.
No one but my mom even cares if I live or die.
I’d like to say that it doesn’t bother me.
But I’m in pain. A deep emotional pain piercing through my soul.
I understand how other incels have been broken down by these circumstances.
I don’t even know what keeps me going. I have no reason to go on.
But I will not break. I want to live on, to carry on and move forward.
Every day that I live is a day that I have defied society.
cel. 
