IamJacksBrokenHeart
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why even life ?
Life is only pain and rejection
copeing with pointless shit
no friends , no love , no affection , no family who gives a shit about you , no talents , no concentration , discipline , no aspirations , no goals ...
nothing to life for , nothing to die for ..
And in the past , only pain , tears have dried up , cant even laugh anymore ..
And still clinging to this Life like things are going to change .
Waiting for '' the next big thing '' , the next epiphany , the next cope , the next .. whatever ..
Like a zombie , brainless , meaningless , entirely driven by instinct .
And its all going downhill , its not getting better
its just getting more painful as the years go by
running in circles
thinking i am something special , like i have some purpose
but im just an autistic kid who got bullied
coincidence and by design
brought into this world to achieve something , anything
used to be so happy when it all began
telling people about my oh so crazy life
but now i do nothing else than letting myself and everyone else down
self deprecation
self pity
cope
sad shit
Life is only pain and rejection
copeing with pointless shit
no friends , no love , no affection , no family who gives a shit about you , no talents , no concentration , discipline , no aspirations , no goals ...
nothing to life for , nothing to die for ..
And in the past , only pain , tears have dried up , cant even laugh anymore ..
And still clinging to this Life like things are going to change .
Waiting for '' the next big thing '' , the next epiphany , the next cope , the next .. whatever ..
Like a zombie , brainless , meaningless , entirely driven by instinct .
And its all going downhill , its not getting better
its just getting more painful as the years go by
running in circles
thinking i am something special , like i have some purpose
but im just an autistic kid who got bullied
coincidence and by design
brought into this world to achieve something , anything
used to be so happy when it all began
telling people about my oh so crazy life
but now i do nothing else than letting myself and everyone else down
self deprecation
self pity
cope
sad shit