Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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It's not like I lost a limb or anything, but life does seem to suck and then when you think that the level of suck is bad enough, it somehow changes and it's a different kind of suck, but cause it's a new suck it feels like it sucks even more.
At this point I have a sort of nervous thought, where I don't let myself think things are bad or can't get worse, cause then I know that somehow things are going to get much worse the minute I think I have it bad.
And it's not really something I can put into words, I can't even complain about it, it's more like my personal hell. A web of shit of my own doing. It's like a domino effect, where the fuck-ups from long ago lead to more and more fuck-ups which keep turning everything into shit.
At this point I have a sort of nervous thought, where I don't let myself think things are bad or can't get worse, cause then I know that somehow things are going to get much worse the minute I think I have it bad.
And it's not really something I can put into words, I can't even complain about it, it's more like my personal hell. A web of shit of my own doing. It's like a domino effect, where the fuck-ups from long ago lead to more and more fuck-ups which keep turning everything into shit.