Venting Is it wrong for me to commit suicide despite having friends and family who care about me?

[johanthedeathnic]

M18, im new to the platform and im not familiar with posting boards, so I apologize if im not formatting this correctly. I recently bought a shotgun a 12-gauge Remington at my local gun store and because I'm 18 the 4473 form takes a week and a bit more to come back (atf backround check for purchasing a weapon) but its given me time to reflect that despite knowing I will never be in a romantic or sexual relationship is this life even worth living just because i have 2 or 3 close friends? I know some incels have it much worse than me so it almost seems ungrateful that I'd kill myself over being an ethnic subhuman. My normie friends aren't aware of my incel status, despite me not having a girlfriend or even a single talking stage and neither does my family understand this, so they would also be left with no explanation on why Im doing the thing im planning on. Im currently reading pessimist literature to find some philosophical justification to maybe write in a note, anyways any opinons? also sorry for being a grey im not sure if im even allowed to post or not.

 

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fine, I'll bite this fed bait
yes, we can tell you are a grey from the reddit formatting

And no, it's not wrong.
First of all, you'd be dead. Why would you care whether it's "wrong" or not?
Your friends likely care about you less than you think, they'll grieve for maybe a week and then move on.
Your family moved away from their deathnic shithole into a white majority country, the U.S., and then decided to reproduce. They then proceed to ignore your issues. They should have had the foresight to see this coming.

All that being said, I neither will encourage nor discourage you from doing this. Just make sure that if you do, do it in a way that ensures you won't end up a vegetable.
You're 18, which is still young, but if you've gotten to this point, it's unlikely that at any point in your future your life will go uphill.
I mean, your only other option is to hope to make some money in the future so you can buy more copes.

 

[johanthedeathnic]

I was adopted by white people, sorry to trauma dump in a sense, but my biological family is dead, but I was raised by my white parents for pretty much my entire life in the USA. Of course, this came with a sort of alienation im too white for black people and too black for white people so I don't even have a community of my own in a sense, which has further fueled my loneliness. I apologize if it came off as fedbait im genuinely just suicidal but ill try to word it better next time. Thank you for responding to my post. You're right, I doubt the grieving would happen past a month I think the whole they would care is just a form of emotional hostage taking to force people like me into staying in a world they werent meant to participate in.

 

[StoryOfMyLaugh]

Well i’m not a defense attorney in a court trying to use fluffy-duffy words to persuade you to do anything, nor am I going out to appeal-to-possibilities, so at the end of the day, do whatever you want

I have this one thing I like to do personally since all I can really give is an anecdote: legitimately going out and talking to the females you’re attracted to, and gauge their opinions on you and what makes you deem yourself to be subhuman.

I had a female colleague who is legitimately nice, happy, and bright towards everyone else’s face literally be sucked out of any semblance of happiness she was experiencing that day when she seen my face, and even ended up giving me a scowl once I went up to her and asked her for her phone number. Then for days at a time, she would get her group of friends over and she would start passive-aggressively belittling me in front of them from a distance I could overhear. Afterwards, I was 100% certain, at the very least, my looks objectively had to do with what makes me unappealing.

I generally don’t appeal to the idea of “beliefs”, and legitimately like to personally experiment with going out and proving what I now know to be objectively true. So, you can go out and confirm those stigmas to be true, or once again you don’t have to and you can do whatever you want.

 

[johanthedeathnic]

Thank you for the advice. I'm sorry she treated you that way; it's inhumane. If I don't intend on being here for much longer, what do I have to lose? Maybe just asking girls what's wrong with me could be a good measurement of my situation. but what's the point if im already aware of my flaws and why im unattractive? wouldn't my talking to girls I find attractive just further worsen my already destroyed mental state regarding my appearance?

 

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I think the whole they would care is just a form of emotional hostage taking to force people like me into staying in a world they werent meant to participate in.

I apologize if it came off as fedbait im genuinely just suicidal but ill try to word it better next time. Thank you for responding to my post.

Trucel trait to be this meek. I was surprised when you said you were a negro instead of a foreigner since they purportedly have a sort of unique appeal to foids, but I suppose behaving like this when the expectation from females of your own and other races is to be a mindless gorilla is just about a death sentence.
I'd really like to tell you that it gets better since you seem like you deserve it, but the unfortunate reality is that it simply doesn't.

 

[johanthedeathnic]

No, it is not inherently selfish to commit suicide. Suicide is not a sin like all that bible thumping bullshit says. When you suffer enough a breaking point is reached. I have lots of sympathy for people who are suicidal as I’ve been like you for my entire life. I have no idea what you’re going through so I won’t give you a phony lecture, but I will say that you should hang in there. You’re young and don’t know how your life will turn out.


J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in The Rye.

thank you for the reply, I hope whatever you're going through also gets better vector.

 

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but I will say that you should hang in there. You’re young and don’t know how your life will turn out.

tbqh this seems a bit cope, if he's here it realistically isn't getting better. if anything, it will just get worse and worse, it would be lying to say otherwise.
I doubt our words will decide anything anyways, the final decision is made by the question of whether he's able to overcome his innate biological instincts or not in the moment.

Then again, if he's wealthy enough to just go out and purchase a firearm, perhaps he could cruise by as a goodlifer by buying copes with his money.

 

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@johanthedeathnic
I'm assuming you're wealthy, at least middle class, seeing as you're adopted by a white family
If you could just buy copes with the money of your parents and their expectations aren't too high, it could be a more comfortable alternative if you decide to not go through with it.

 

[johanthedeathnic]

Trucel trait to be this meek. I was surprised when you said you were a negro instead of a foreigner since they purportedly have a sort of unique appeal to foids, but I suppose behaving like this when the expectation from females of your own and other races is to be a mindless gorilla is just about a death sentence.
I'd really like to tell you that it gets better since you seem like you deserve it, but the unfortunate reality is that it simply doesn't.

yeah, I think coming to terms that it doesn't get better is the best thing I can do. It's the go-to response that everyone goes for, but nobody can tell me how my tangible characteristics, like my skin color/race can ever get better. Because it can't you're born black and you have multiple presuppositions already placed onto you, and when you don't fit into those categories of being a 6'4 athlete "thug" you're essentially thrown away by society. I know what I must do

 

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yeah, I think coming to terms that it doesn't get better is the best thing I can do. It's the go-to response that everyone goes for, but nobody can tell me how my tangible characteristics, like my skin color/race can ever get better. Because it can't you're born black and you have multiple presuppositions already placed onto you, and when you don't fit into those categories of being a 6'4 athlete "thug" you're essentially thrown away by society. I know what I must do

yeah, unfortunate that of the few conscious niggers, most of them just sperg out or rope because life doesn't serve them well. ND + nigger = death sentence.
good luck with your endeavors, and better luck next time in the reincarnation matrix I suppose

 

[Emba]

Kill, fuck, & eat, the white race traitor "parents" before you kys bro.

- In GTA 5, ofc

Or stick around and see what other horrors the world has planned for you.

You think things suck now? You ain't seen nothing yet.

In fact, you're so young and stupid, that you've seen nothing, now!

You are too stupid to see just how lucky you are! Stupid spoiled fucking cunt bitch!