I was placed in special ed classes when i was younger for behavioral issues. I had depression from a very young age and would self harm when as young as 1st grade. I used to draw drawings of my own death and everyone laughing at my grave site. LMAO it seems so edgy now but it was what i did in 1ST GRADE. I've had this nagging feeling ever since childhood i was universally hated and targeted and sure enough i was right. I was an ugly child and an ugly baby and I knew i was hated for it and i have tons of proof as I look back with 20/20. From K-12 i slept in class, didn't do work was and just wanted my life to be over.
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In college though i had a 3.5 my first year to spite the fact i never learned anything from school. My learning was done outside school. Old RPGs and MMOs taught me how to read and spell mostly. Lurking forums taught me your/you're there/they're and their. ect.
I read on my own books that interested me, I learned about nature and animals the most because it's what always interested me so when i had access to the internet i'd watch history documentaries and nature documentaries and so i'd already understand a lot of the time what they were talking about in school.
I knew from a very VERY young age i was ugly and my life was over.
