At this point anything other than life of chad is a useless disappointment and consolation prize. All the chad fishes destroyed me completely.
As I get older my standards increase because my bitterness and bottled rage makes me hate unattractive women. I suppose it's some form of projected self hatred but I don't give a fuck.
I am no longer capable of love, whatever that was in first place. I only look at women as set of body parts. They are not interesting. Neither are most men for that matter but I'm not trying to fuck them. Interesting women are either 50 and read entire library worth of books, or so far out of my universe I might aswel try to ascend with a 2d character.
There is absolutely 0 point in trying, you'll never ascend in true sense.
If anyone here EVER ascends and retains sobriety, they'll realise how hollow and disappointing it is. Because it will be with something you can barely call female at a point in life where its hormonal profile is closer to a 13 year old boy than a fertile female.
I fucking hate how all this turned out. I don't want to rule the world or something ridiculous ffs I just wanted one woman I can get excited about.