"Apathy, according to Urban Dictionary, describes a lack of interest, enthusiasm, or emotion towards things, situations, or people. It can manifest as indifference, a lack of motivation, or a feeling that "nothing matters,"
I feel like prior to being blackpilled and just being red pilled about reality (I am not just talking about women here) I atleast had hope and fucks to give. I was decent at studies(placed in programs for highly talented students), I was extroverted with decent amount of friends, I played basketball (even as a manlet kek).
but most importantly I had hope. I had ambitions about my future.
Lo and behold the great blackpilling of 2020 and after I became a shell of myself. Depressed. Shut in. Introverted . Since 2020 I have been in a rut. 5 years now.
Like my gpa is very very bad right not and I am can't apply to any scholarship or decent decent grad school two years down the line if I stay in this track....yet it's like I don't give a shit about it all I am so numb to the prospect of being unemployed yet pre 2020 me would have been a neurotic academic overachiever who can't stand a B.
I have very few friends. And most of my acquaintances mock me for being anti social and having zero interaction with normies especially foids who hate the fact that I refuse to beta orbit them but again I am apathetic. I cannot give two fucks about socialising which is bad because whenever I am in a sucky situation like needing an assignment help I have zero frens to call to.
i haven't joined a single club, extracurriculars , bars ,etc and my only friend who is mostly an acquaintance mocks just how invisible I am in all positions of my life. I let life happen to me. I spend days scrolling shit tock. Don't study until the last midnight of exam dont go anywhere not even to th nearby beaches.
and sometimes I miss my old self. Cuz atleast my old self cares and I miss giving afuck
I feel like prior to being blackpilled and just being red pilled about reality (I am not just talking about women here) I atleast had hope and fucks to give. I was decent at studies(placed in programs for highly talented students), I was extroverted with decent amount of friends, I played basketball (even as a manlet kek).
but most importantly I had hope. I had ambitions about my future.
Lo and behold the great blackpilling of 2020 and after I became a shell of myself. Depressed. Shut in. Introverted . Since 2020 I have been in a rut. 5 years now.
Like my gpa is very very bad right not and I am can't apply to any scholarship or decent decent grad school two years down the line if I stay in this track....yet it's like I don't give a shit about it all I am so numb to the prospect of being unemployed yet pre 2020 me would have been a neurotic academic overachiever who can't stand a B.
I have very few friends. And most of my acquaintances mock me for being anti social and having zero interaction with normies especially foids who hate the fact that I refuse to beta orbit them but again I am apathetic. I cannot give two fucks about socialising which is bad because whenever I am in a sucky situation like needing an assignment help I have zero frens to call to.
i haven't joined a single club, extracurriculars , bars ,etc and my only friend who is mostly an acquaintance mocks just how invisible I am in all positions of my life. I let life happen to me. I spend days scrolling shit tock. Don't study until the last midnight of exam dont go anywhere not even to th nearby beaches.
and sometimes I miss my old self. Cuz atleast my old self cares and I miss giving afuck
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