yes
i feel defeated as i have zero prospects of ascending. no friends, no social circle, nothing
i wanna visit SEA and various cities in east asia to see where I wanna stay for good.
I cannot live here in America anymore as I'm totally invisible to foids.
I'm moneymaxxed but I still can't ascend.
I have the option to continue struggling here and possibly become a betabuxx for a single mother in her late 30s/mid 40s, or I can try to ascend with a poor SEA foid in her 20s.
I'm not optimistic though as I have two old ricecel acquaintances that went to SEA and couldn't ascend. SEA foids still idolize the korean chang/pretty boy look and I'm nowhere near that.