
Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I guess this is a good explanation of why I've lived my life the way I did. I mean, to lay in bed with your laptop for 16 hours a day is one thing. But to actually do nothing on that laptop and just vegetate while watching the same sitcoms for the 50th time, or just browsing the same sites, or just playing the same easy games that barely require any interaction (and not even achieving a good performance).
Hmm, I think I was this lazy even before my depression started, but it was so fucking long ago I don't even remember.
I'm so lazy that every tiny micro-decision in my life is determined by laziness. Hell, I watch the same sitcoms over and over because I guess watching new stuff would consume too much energy? Idk, I guess it's much easier for the brain to just watch the same stuff than listen to new things.
There's so much good advice I could apply to my life to make it at least a little bit better. But I won't do it, cause I'm always rushing to end any other activity that prevents me from laying in bed, vegetating while doing almost nothing, just staring at a screen consuming mindless media.
Hmm, I think I was this lazy even before my depression started, but it was so fucking long ago I don't even remember.
I'm so lazy that every tiny micro-decision in my life is determined by laziness. Hell, I watch the same sitcoms over and over because I guess watching new stuff would consume too much energy? Idk, I guess it's much easier for the brain to just watch the same stuff than listen to new things.
There's so much good advice I could apply to my life to make it at least a little bit better. But I won't do it, cause I'm always rushing to end any other activity that prevents me from laying in bed, vegetating while doing almost nothing, just staring at a screen consuming mindless media.