tesseract4444
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time to drink myself into a stuperHappy birthday lad
time to drink myself into a stuperHappy birthday lad
Brutal if true39 year old KV. Shaken as an infant then spent all my school years in special education classes. Father beat the shit out of me well into my 20's, kids at school always harassing and attacking me. Always obese since food and video games were my only copes. Never tried college, just chose to NEET. Had a few jobs here and there but always fired or quit due to bullying.
Took til my 30's to even find a therapist who took me seriously enough to officially diagnose me with autism, bipolar, and major depression. At that time I desperately thought that was how I was gonna finally get help; it never did. Ended up at a full-time job for about 5 years and was miserable from constantly masking and often getting bullied, then covid hit and I lost my job.
During this time I tried to ascend by lifting weights and dieting, I'd lose about 100-200 lbs and gain it all back thanks to depression dragging me back, repeat about 3-4 times. Had a nervous breakdown a few years ago when I had dropped so much weight my doctor warned me I was dangerously underweight, and I was still ugly. It hit me that I'd never look good enough to lose my virginity, so I stopped eating healthy and stopped going to the gym, and now I'm over 500 lbs.
The anhedonia is growing stronger and stronger, and I'm just about out of copes except for shitposting for about 8-10 hours a day and sleeping the rest.