I remember when I first got my first taste of pornography. I was in elementary school and there was a local video rental store I sometimes went into see what movies they had. I ventured off into a more secluded area and I didn't know what I was seeing, but I already figured out by then I wasn't supposed to see that. One of the clerks saw me and immediately called me out and said "Hey! What are you doing there?!" and I just lifted my arms and I said "I'm sorry" repeatedly. Then once I was 13 and I had access to the internet, I would browse this HTML website which would open another tab with a funny video playing. I clicked on a random URL on that same website and it showed a video of a woman queefing. I knew I wasn't supposed to be watching that, but I did. I would visit that URL a few times afterwards. That was pretty much the first time I willingly looked at porn, although it was softcore. Then after a while I found Abby Winters, some lesbo site but with a lot of softcore pictures and videos. Soon after I discovered hentai but after a few months I lost interest and switched to hardcore porn. I have been hooked ever since, albeit when I was in my early teens, I don't remember how many days I would quit doing it, before watching and masturbating to another video. I assume I would abstain for two weeks without even thinking about it, maybe even a month. And I would only do it once. Whenever I would masturbate, I was able to be really social even after doing it. But when I found anti-masturbation circles online in my late teens, all of that somehow changed and I would and still become really awkward after doing it. I also feel guilty for doing it even though I never felt that way before. Unfortunately, I have been dealing with this ever since. It's been 7 years now. Still can't quit. I gave up cigarettes easily after years of smoking from age 13 until age 18. But this shit I can't quit. And I absolutely hate it.