Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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My prospects are narrowing by the day, people my age go through marriages and kids and already have lead full lives and have been through the full range of human emotions and experiences.
My body is deteriorating, my mind is growing duller by the day - a fate that no human can escape.
Can't stop my brain from thinking about what I missed out on, on contemplating all of my regrets - despite actively trying to brainwash myself with all the "live in the present" "forget about the past" mumbo jumbo you can think of. No amount of religious or spiritual, philosophical ways of looking at life can make me see past my own failures and regrets, for some reason my brain won't let itself be brainwashed.
And the worst of it all? If I could do it all again, I'm sure I'd do the exact same things. My past failures aren't a result of me doing something wrong, they're a result of me being me. This is who I am, I am a living mistake, a living contradiction never able to be happy.
My body is deteriorating, my mind is growing duller by the day - a fate that no human can escape.
Can't stop my brain from thinking about what I missed out on, on contemplating all of my regrets - despite actively trying to brainwash myself with all the "live in the present" "forget about the past" mumbo jumbo you can think of. No amount of religious or spiritual, philosophical ways of looking at life can make me see past my own failures and regrets, for some reason my brain won't let itself be brainwashed.
And the worst of it all? If I could do it all again, I'm sure I'd do the exact same things. My past failures aren't a result of me doing something wrong, they're a result of me being me. This is who I am, I am a living mistake, a living contradiction never able to be happy.
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