It's Over Inceldom fried my neurons and made me be on a permanent flight or fight mode

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Since my dad passed away years ago, i've been slowly becoming more deranged and unstable as the time went on, no longer i am the timid and akward incel i was when i was a younger, instead im on a permanent stress flight or fight mindset that i can't get out off.

I randomly laugh at things, at my life, sometimes i get random af shakes like i just got tased, even when im coping good its usually not enough to make me feel at peace, going outside has becomed FAR harder, i can barely talk to people now without looking or acting like a mental patient, my obsession with knives came back full force after years of being asleep, im always obsessing over something now, like my brain is trying to go into full delusion cope mode and just shut down reality.

My sleep also went to complete shit, i randomly wake up at 2 am or 4 am and can't sleep afterwards, then i randomly take naps through the day, i can FEEL my brain going full circus ape mode slowly but surely, it's over.

 

[Animecel2D]

what did your dad pass away from

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

what did your dad pass away from

Sudden heart attack, i still remember it perfectly cause it was so random at 10pm, knowing he left this world without ever seeing me act as a normal human fucked me up bad

 

[Animecel2D]

Sudden heart attack, i still remember it perfectly cause it was so random at 10pm, knowing he left this world without ever seeing me act as a normal human fucked me up bad

brutal, life is so fragile and you can die at any moment from random shit like this

 

[curryboy420]

Sorry about your dad bro and I feel you I also went a lot more unstable this last year and I fear this time Im not going to be able to come back to normal .

Crazy how all I needed was a little bit of money when I was 18 and I probably could have fixed all these problems by moving out away from my retard family and the Muslim shithole town I was born in. I could have got a little room in London and worked a job and made something of myself. Instead I just let my youth piss away. Shit man.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

brutal, life is so fragile and you can die at any moment from random shit like this

I had a brutal encounter with that last october where i almost died of a viral disease and it made me realize that my life memories at my last moments would be wanking it off to anime ladies and vidya LOL, can't make this up man.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I feel similar, I'm never able to relax. I can never feel at peace. My mind is a mess and I can't do anything about it. It feels like I am a prisoner inside my own skin and mind. It's so exhausting and torturous.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Sorry about your dad bro and I feel you I also went a lot more unstable this last year and I fear this time Im not going to be able to come back to normal .

Crazy how all I needed was a little bit of money when I was 18 and I probably could have fixed all these problems by moving out away from my retard family and the Muslim shithole town I was born in. I could have got a little room in London and worked a job and made something of myself. Instead I just let my youth piss away. Shit man.

Thank you bro and sorry about your case too, we just got dealt a horrible hand of cards in life

 

[Animecel2D]

wanking it off to anime ladies and vidya LOL

fakecel if you have any other memories apart from this tbh

 

[Lonelyus]

I just dont give a shit about anything anymore

 

[Friezacel]

are you NEET ?

 

[Adolf Kitler]

I just dont give a shit about anything anymore

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

are you NEET ?

Currently yes, just graduated this year after 4 years of hell on college

 

[VintageCarCoper]

I feel the same way. My sleep is always broken, and all the days I have to push though on 4-6 hours of sleep or none at all takes it’s toll. My whole body and mind are worn so much from life. I get so tired of everything