I've learned nothing.
It feels like life has just drifted past me.
I've just ended up as poor, lazy and ugly as they are. Even If I had kids whilst being poor and ugly I'd at least do my best to get them out of it, but my parents have done nothing.
I'm fully capable of getting A** on all subjects but being surrounded by unmotivated victim-complexed poor subhumans in all my childhood I could never be successful in anything.
I've never tried my hardest in anything. And I was the one who had to notice this and take action on this myself.
They've done absolutely nothing. All they've done is provided a roof over my head and food, the absolute minimum that nearly every parent does for their child. They've done nothing more. And btw by shelter I mean a tiny apartment where I have to share a bedroom with my sibling. And by food I mean barely any of it. I'm skinny as fuck and people in school joked about it and even my mum's friends joked about it but obviously that spineless loser didn't care.
Thank god for the fact that I noticed how incompetent I was and unfulfilling of my potential I was before it was too late. Well it was too late. Up until 16 years of age I was unconsciously incompetent. It was exactly halfway through my GCSEs, which I did terrible on for my standards, where I watched this really good video by Jordan Belfort (the wolf of wall street) that made me realise how I've never actually tried my 100% at anything in my life and I never had a winner mentality and all my excuses for not trying at stuff were invalid. (It's just a coincidence that he's in my avi btw I just got it cuz I liked the movie.)
Unfortunately it was too late that I became conciously incompetent. I was already halfway through my GCSEs and it takes time to go from the cycle of being conciously incompetent to then being conciously competent so I still didn't do enough revision for the upcoming tests despite knowing I had to do so.
I am now 18 and I am still between being conciously incompetent and competent.
It's just crazy to me that I had to find out about this myself and how they've never pushed me or taught me anything of value.
The version of me at 16 feels 10 years younger than who I am today.
And it's sad because my younger sister is the same as I used to be: unconiously incompetent. She never tries in school and I ask her why and she just laughs about it. I feel like I need to become like a parent to her and motivate her to do her best because I know fully well that my parents won't do shit when she's 16 and has 1 week left until her GCSEs and hasn't done any revision like with me.
1) unconiously incompetent
2) consciously incompetent
3) conciously competent
4) unconiously competent
My whole life I've been at 1) and I've been at 2) for 2 years and I still haven't gotten to 3).
I have such high standards for where I wanna be in life. Yet my parents are somehow comfortable with where they are.
Ye. Brutal. It feels like I'm the offspring of millionaires yet was adopted by the homeless.
@anon1822 @Atavistic Autist @Gymcelled can any of u relate?
Btw nothing I'm saying here is to to be conceited of myself, to sound edgy or to attention seek or whatever so if you take it that way then you're a fucking loser with an inferiroty complex. There is no possible way you can respond to this post in a negative way against me so if somehow manage to do so then you're retarded.
It feels like life has just drifted past me.
I've just ended up as poor, lazy and ugly as they are. Even If I had kids whilst being poor and ugly I'd at least do my best to get them out of it, but my parents have done nothing.
I'm fully capable of getting A** on all subjects but being surrounded by unmotivated victim-complexed poor subhumans in all my childhood I could never be successful in anything.
I've never tried my hardest in anything. And I was the one who had to notice this and take action on this myself.
They've done absolutely nothing. All they've done is provided a roof over my head and food, the absolute minimum that nearly every parent does for their child. They've done nothing more. And btw by shelter I mean a tiny apartment where I have to share a bedroom with my sibling. And by food I mean barely any of it. I'm skinny as fuck and people in school joked about it and even my mum's friends joked about it but obviously that spineless loser didn't care.
Thank god for the fact that I noticed how incompetent I was and unfulfilling of my potential I was before it was too late. Well it was too late. Up until 16 years of age I was unconsciously incompetent. It was exactly halfway through my GCSEs, which I did terrible on for my standards, where I watched this really good video by Jordan Belfort (the wolf of wall street) that made me realise how I've never actually tried my 100% at anything in my life and I never had a winner mentality and all my excuses for not trying at stuff were invalid. (It's just a coincidence that he's in my avi btw I just got it cuz I liked the movie.)
Unfortunately it was too late that I became conciously incompetent. I was already halfway through my GCSEs and it takes time to go from the cycle of being conciously incompetent to then being conciously competent so I still didn't do enough revision for the upcoming tests despite knowing I had to do so.
I am now 18 and I am still between being conciously incompetent and competent.
It's just crazy to me that I had to find out about this myself and how they've never pushed me or taught me anything of value.
The version of me at 16 feels 10 years younger than who I am today.
And it's sad because my younger sister is the same as I used to be: unconiously incompetent. She never tries in school and I ask her why and she just laughs about it. I feel like I need to become like a parent to her and motivate her to do her best because I know fully well that my parents won't do shit when she's 16 and has 1 week left until her GCSEs and hasn't done any revision like with me.
1) unconiously incompetent
2) consciously incompetent
3) conciously competent
4) unconiously competent
My whole life I've been at 1) and I've been at 2) for 2 years and I still haven't gotten to 3).
I have such high standards for where I wanna be in life. Yet my parents are somehow comfortable with where they are.
Ye. Brutal. It feels like I'm the offspring of millionaires yet was adopted by the homeless.
@anon1822 @Atavistic Autist @Gymcelled can any of u relate?
Btw nothing I'm saying here is to to be conceited of myself, to sound edgy or to attention seek or whatever so if you take it that way then you're a fucking loser with an inferiroty complex. There is no possible way you can respond to this post in a negative way against me so if somehow manage to do so then you're retarded.
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