I'm so retarded that whatever I do, I can't clean my apartment properly. It's like I'm blind to the details. I can vacuum and wipe down cabinets but it's never as good as when my mother helps out. Back when I was bluepilled I would want to keep my apartment clean just in case a foid miraculously would come over. Since the blackpill I don't really care anymore but I still have a threshold and I can't do it properly without my mother's help. It's over. 
