Friezacel
Foids, write me on Discord: lauterbach2
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I feel both mature and immature at the same time. Intellectually speaking, i feel like im 80 years old (hence my signature), i feel like i discovered so much (dangerous) knowledge in such a short time, that is supposed to be learned slowly and with age and not at fucking 20, my supposed prime.
But i also feel immature at the same time because mentally i feel like im completely stunted. After 20 years on this damn planet, i still cant hold a basic conversation with NTs, even if my life depended on it. I dont know and will never know what and how a relationship with a girl actually is, i dont know whats its like to be part of a social group, i dont know how humans live. Why i said humans ? I dont even feel human anymore, i feel like im a distant relative species of humans at best, an underdeveloped species that will never be able to live a happy life.
But i also feel immature at the same time because mentally i feel like im completely stunted. After 20 years on this damn planet, i still cant hold a basic conversation with NTs, even if my life depended on it. I dont know and will never know what and how a relationship with a girl actually is, i dont know whats its like to be part of a social group, i dont know how humans live. Why i said humans ? I dont even feel human anymore, i feel like im a distant relative species of humans at best, an underdeveloped species that will never be able to live a happy life.