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Some parts of my family like to travel. But I always have to stay at home. They have seen landscapes/events of enormous beauty - like safaris, mountains or great white sharks in Africa, baby turtles in Mexico, the monuments/landscapes in America, temples in India and did stuff like climbing mountains/etc. while I stayed at home - I never was outside Europe and in the last ~5 years maybe for ~three weeks out of my town (if I take everything as a sum).
Even my parents (who are not travelers in the slighest) leave me at home very often - for example: When there is a party in the neighborhood or in the town (the latter isn't even something I blame them for because I was/am treated like a village idiot by most people who grew up with me and was beaten/insulted by them on a regular basis in school and out of school), but it still hurts to some degree.
Sometimes it's however extreme ragefuel, for example: When I have to learn/work at home and they want to travel to a lake with a family from the neighborhood while letting me rot at home (it's not like I want to be there with others, it's just the thought of being excluded and rotting while others have fun that makes me so furious). Or as my father just traveled around the world with his part of the family while I stayed at home and had to learn/care for the animals and was also affected by my mother who had a mental crisis due to problems in the family. This was giga-ragefuel for me. Also the permanent fights after stuff like that (for weeks and for weeks). Anyone who often gets left out of things even in the own family?
Even my parents (who are not travelers in the slighest) leave me at home very often - for example: When there is a party in the neighborhood or in the town (the latter isn't even something I blame them for because I was/am treated like a village idiot by most people who grew up with me and was beaten/insulted by them on a regular basis in school and out of school), but it still hurts to some degree.
Sometimes it's however extreme ragefuel, for example: When I have to learn/work at home and they want to travel to a lake with a family from the neighborhood while letting me rot at home (it's not like I want to be there with others, it's just the thought of being excluded and rotting while others have fun that makes me so furious). Or as my father just traveled around the world with his part of the family while I stayed at home and had to learn/care for the animals and was also affected by my mother who had a mental crisis due to problems in the family. This was giga-ragefuel for me. Also the permanent fights after stuff like that (for weeks and for weeks). Anyone who often gets left out of things even in the own family?
