Ok so, I'm saying this because when I was 7 I took an iq test, and the results were in the hundreds despite my.... less than savory performance in school at that time. Which I will be making a thread going more in depth on that and my life in general. Anyways I had a high iq however I had to have things drilled into me so I could learn them. For instance take english and just writing in general, my mom would make me rewrite my essays until they were college level or almost college level when I was in elementary kek. This made me a hell of a lot better at writing than most children in my class and I am usually praised for my writings. Especially when I am told to make something up, like a story or something. I was actually able to become so good at it because guess what? Its simple and not really all that complex unless you're a huge fucking nitwit (average normie). Along with elementary grade math, another thing I had to put hours in to get fluent in. My father would yell at me constantly because I couldn't do the division problems properly. Math is one of the only things I really struggle with in school because its complex and there's multiple different forms of math. Like addition and subtraction and algebra and all that shit. If math was just elementary math, well then I'd be a fucking genius, perhaps with everyone else. But sadly I live in the real world.
Now I'm in highschool doing useless algebra equations that will get me no where. I have to ask so many questions in class that the kids will make fun of me for it. Hell even the teachers themselves make fun of me. I get made fun of by normies who don't even listen in class and are failing along with me. Its not fair. Like sometimes the teacher will ask me question and i'll say "I don't know, I think its-" whatever my answer is and the whole class will just start laughing at me and sniggering under their breaths. But when the normie gets it wrong no one gives a fuck. Hell the kids who are smart no one really talks to.
I am meant to fail socially.
I am meant to suffer.
I am meant to sulk in agony.
I am meant to miss out on so much during my teen years.
I am meant to be alone with no friends.
I am meant to rot in my room watching everyone else have fun on social media.
I am meant to sulk in my anger.
Its over. Hell it never began.
Now I'm in highschool doing useless algebra equations that will get me no where. I have to ask so many questions in class that the kids will make fun of me for it. Hell even the teachers themselves make fun of me. I get made fun of by normies who don't even listen in class and are failing along with me. Its not fair. Like sometimes the teacher will ask me question and i'll say "I don't know, I think its-" whatever my answer is and the whole class will just start laughing at me and sniggering under their breaths. But when the normie gets it wrong no one gives a fuck. Hell the kids who are smart no one really talks to.
I am meant to fail socially.
I am meant to suffer.
I am meant to sulk in agony.
I am meant to miss out on so much during my teen years.
I am meant to be alone with no friends.
I am meant to rot in my room watching everyone else have fun on social media.
I am meant to sulk in my anger.
Its over. Hell it never began.
