Incel/Graycel trait: you're super anxious even about social interactions online

[hapakatt]

I haven't talked to people besides family in years and gave up on socializing because of the shitty treatment I've received from normies and foids. I think if you socialize as an incel, you're a masochist.
All people look down on me for my looks; I look almost like a fucking 13-year-old because I STOPPED FUCKING GROWING at that age, so I'm 5'5 in a country where 6'0 tallfags and foids taller than me are common. In every social interaction, I'm infantilized, everything I say is stupid no matter what it is. I have zero friends now, but when I had "friends years ago, I got bullied by them too. Even other outcasts don't want anything to do with me.
I eventually forced myself to try to make friends online once, which was really tough for me. I used to spend several minutes, if not hours, just to send simple messages. Despite trying my best to be kind and interesting, I got bullied and called incel for being awkward. This made me become too afraid of interacting with people even online. So I then decided to just LDAR alone inside and cope with hobbies. I was forced to become even more socially inept and my social anxiety got worse. But I have since felt a strong need to interact with somebody again, which has been a struggle. I have tried anonymous chats, only for me to leave the chat immediately in fear of getting mocked. I have joined Discord servers, but chickened out and immediately left after just a hi. Yet, when once again I became brave enough to say something, I was ridiculed by cucks. I have realized that most online spaces are only filled with closed-minded normies, foids and faggots. That's why I joined this site, something which I have been contemplating for half a year; the treatment I've received has made me scared to even interact with other incels. I literally spent an hour contemplating whether to write this because of my social anxiety. I will probably regret this post and overthink it for a week. Soyciety did this to me. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE

 

[Autist]

I can't even send an audio message.

 

[AdExpress]

Good first post and super relatable

 

[Wrath]

yes

 

[hapakatt]

Same I am also scared of talking on the phone and sending emails.

I can't even send an audio message.

 

[TheCatMan]

Yes a fellow Manlet!

 

[Cnidoblastos]

brutal

 

[allah]

Good first post and super relatable

 

[allah]

brutal

 

[Faded For Her]

Go post some cringe shit and ragebait on socials. It will pass.

 

[SirDave]

Same

 

[KetamineCel]

Same I am also scared of talking on the phone and sending emails.

i had to fucking hang up on the hospital today because i was just freezing up on the phone, what’s wrong w me

 

[SirDave]

Browsed .is most days for over two years and I have 50 posts. Usually I'll type up a response and then second-guess sending it.

 

[SirDave]

Fuck normies for making me this way

 

[Runt171]

Welcome nigga

 

[Mr.Breb]

no, irl i have social anxiety having it's peak in 16-17 but not online

 

[forsenMaxLevel]

the mocking won't end here. I thought brocel = infinite empathy for fellow brocels but no

 

[Knull]

when you die you'll be alone. cant trust anyone else. Friends are temporary

 

[deleted fren]

I got bullied heavily as well whenever I used voice chat or they found out what I looked like.

 

[quizzity]

This is my life, I'm cripplingly shy and socially retarded so I'm in a retard jobs program even though I'm not mentally retarded

I'm constantly paranoid and always freak out about someone I know from somewhere else being a poster here

 

[frmentalcel]

this is where id usually reply with your join date and post count, but this was a good first post for a grayfag. welcome home

 

[Lifeless]

same, I'm scared to even chat in public spaces because I don't know anyone and I fear being judged because of my past experiences with attempting to socialize

I lurked this forum for a month before registering because I was scared of talking to people

When I learned people here share similar experiences to mine I decided to join

 

[UsernameIsRequired]

I just pretend my messages get sent into the void otherwise i'd be too high inhib to ever reply

 

[MRHK_57]

I used to be, then I've given up on life.

 

[aryanmikmaq]

I haven't talked to people besides family in years and gave up on socializing because of the shitty treatment I've received from normies and foids. I think if you socialize as an incel, you're a masochist.
All people look down on me for my looks; I look almost like a fucking 13-year-old because I STOPPED FUCKING GROWING at that age, so I'm 5'5 in a country where 6'0 tallfags and foids taller than me are common. In every social interaction, I'm infantilized, everything I say is stupid no matter what it is. I have zero friends now, but when I had "friends years ago, I got bullied by them too. Even other outcasts don't want anything to do with me.
I eventually forced myself to try to make friends online once, which was really tough for me. I used to spend several minutes, if not hours, just to send simple messages. Despite trying my best to be kind and interesting, I got bullied and called incel for being awkward. This made me become too afraid of interacting with people even online. So I then decided to just LDAR alone inside and cope with hobbies. I was forced to become even more socially inept and my social anxiety got worse. But I have since felt a strong need to interact with somebody again, which has been a struggle. I have tried anonymous chats, only for me to leave the chat immediately in fear of getting mocked. I have joined Discord servers, but chickened out and immediately left after just a hi. Yet, when once again I became brave enough to say something, I was ridiculed by cucks. I have realized that most online spaces are only filled with closed-minded normies, foids and faggots. That's why I joined this site, something which I have been contemplating for half a year; the treatment I've received has made me scared to even interact with other incels. I literally spent an hour contemplating whether to write this because of my social anxiety. I will probably regret this post and overthink it for a week. Soyciety did this to me. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE

Real

 

[Roaring Knight]

i loosen up when i stay with a community more

 

[TooSomething]

I used to be that way when I first started playing online.
But it was exciting in a positive way. I have met many assholes online, but a few gems have become my friends, from all over the world.

One from Russia, one from Belarus, one from the USA, who unfortunately died. He was my closest friend, even compared to the fake irl friends I've had.
I've known him for around ten years.

I miss him dearly.

Another one is my co-worker who is red pilled at least. It's somwthing.

I am grateful for this.

 

[quizzity]

i loosen up when i stay with a community more

Same, I can interact online fine here or Discord

Still paranoid though

 

[hansuilluo]

brutal

 

[ForcedMarriageNow]

Basically the same here, only made worse by how ban happy everywhere is now.

 

[drowningindenial]

I can't even send an audio message.

 

[iblamechildhood]

Used to be social, but it doesn't change anything if the person you're talking to is disgusted by you. Rather stay silent than gather attention.

 

[hapakatt]

Used to be social, but it doesn't change anything if the person you're talking to is disgusted by you. Rather stay silent than gather attention.

You hit the nail on the head.
People can't shut the fuck up about muh socalizing good for you, "you're only digging yourself deeper down in the rabbit hole by isolating yourself bro". The few times I tried to be socialize, I was disrespected and ditched. Talking with foids is a whole nother thing; I can see it on their face that they just want me gone immediately.
Just as you say, no matter how social you try to be, it doesn't change anything if you are repulsive to others. The exact reason I stopped socializing was because it leads nowhere, it only hurts. I don't give a shit anymore if my life ends up fruitless by digging myself down this hole; it in fact never even began.

 

[antisocialcel]

I don't even like to talk with parents, everyone is against me. Online I have one persona for every site I acesd, so I don't be tracked. I hate normies

 

[Cuckoja]

I can't even send an audio message.

Same.

Sadly only fix is to do it over and over again. Just be yourself, trying to appear normal is noticeable and will make you seem even weirder.

 

[hapakatt]

Sadly only fix is to do it over and over again. Just be yourself, trying to appear normal is noticeable and will make you seem even weirder.

The sad thing is that either way you'd be perceived as weird. Though, just be yourself can be true in the sense that no matter you do, you won't get anything in return for your efforts - so you might as well spare yourself the hassle of trying to pretend you are someone who you actually aren't

 

[Balding Subhuman]

If you suffer from anxiety I'd recommend HIIT exercise. Basically just run as fast as you can for 30 seconds, then walk for 30 seconds, and then repeat for 5-12 times, as many times as you can.

GABA concentration in sensorimotor cortex following high-intensity exercise and relationship to lactate levels - PubMed

High-intensity exercise increases the concentration of circulating lactate. Cortical uptake of blood borne lactate increases during and after exercise; however, the potential relationship with changes in the concentration of neurometabolites remains unclear. Although changes in neurometabolite...

pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

HIIT increases GABA just like benzodiazepines and alcohol, alleviating anxiety. Godspeed to you.

 

[Cuckoja]

The sad thing is that either way you'd be perceived as weird. Though, just be yourself can be true in the sense that no matter you do, you won't get anything in return for your efforts - so you might as well spare yourself the hassle of trying to pretend you are someone who you actually aren't

It requires too much energy to be someone you're not. And people can see through, especially irl, they're million times more experienced than us.

 

[chalk son]

i’m sorry that happened to you

i don’t enjoy talking to others though so i don’t seek it out

 

[Pikacel]

It spikes my cortisol when I see negative posts

 

[neverleaveroomcel]

i was super nervous when i first got into an discord game call. i would mute myself in the group at first

 

[hapakatt]

After being here for a little while, I can admit it gets better. But my social anxiety, be it IRL or online, will never truly go away. I'm still a loser after all.

 

[theozz]

After being here for a little while, I can admit it gets better. But my social anxiety, be it IRL or online, will never truly go away. I'm still a loser after all.

I feel the same, I hate going outside because of people because I hate people. And being made a joke isnt funny and im sorry u have to grow through all this too, my social anxiety has come from THE SAME PEOPLE WHO SAY “U CANT SAY FAGGOT OR NIGGER” BUT THEY WILL DESTROY MY SELF IMAGE THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE LIFE, LIKE WTF, HOW CAN PEOPLE BE WOKE AND SAY U CANT BE RACIST OR HOMOPHOBIC TO INSULT PEOPLE BUT THEY CAN MAKE FUN OF YOUR LOOKS? THEY SAY DONT MAKE FUN OF SOMETHING SOMEONE CANT CHANGE TILL IM AN UGLY WHITE MAN WITH NO FRIENDS

 

[hapakatt]

I feel the same, I hate going outside because of people because I hate people. And being made a joke isnt funny and im sorry u have to grow through all this too, my social anxiety has come from THE SAME PEOPLE WHO SAY “U CANT SAY FAGGOT OR NIGGER” BUT THEY WILL DESTROY MY SELF IMAGE THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE LIFE, LIKE WTF, HOW CAN PEOPLE BE WOKE AND SAY U CANT BE RACIST OR HOMOPHOBIC TO INSULT PEOPLE BUT THEY CAN MAKE FUN OF YOUR LOOKS? THEY SAY DONT MAKE FUN OF SOMETHING SOMEONE CANT CHANGE TILL IM AN UGLY WHITE MAN WITH NO FRIENDS

Disgusting double standards. This also applies to what one says. If you look the way they want you to, you'll get a pass on everything. IN your case: you're an ugly white incel? Racist, homophobic, creepy pervy incel. Fuck them.

People have broken me too much. As I said, it has gotten better, but I'm still anxious about posting even on this forum. I keep posting here, hoping it will feel natural for me but I still don't feel completely comfortable.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Can relate

 

[Sir Silentium]

I can't even send an audio message.

Listening to the recording and your own voice is brutal too

 

[UglyDumbass]

I haven't talked to people besides family in years and gave up on socializing because of the shitty treatment I've received from normies and foids. I think if you socialize as an incel, you're a masochist.
All people look down on me for my looks; I look almost like a fucking 13-year-old because I STOPPED FUCKING GROWING at that age, so I'm 5'5 in a country where 6'0 tallfags and foids taller than me are common. In every social interaction, I'm infantilized, everything I say is stupid no matter what it is. I have zero friends now, but when I had "friends years ago, I got bullied by them too. Even other outcasts don't want anything to do with me.
I eventually forced myself to try to make friends online once, which was really tough for me. I used to spend several minutes, if not hours, just to send simple messages. Despite trying my best to be kind and interesting, I got bullied and called incel for being awkward. This made me become too afraid of interacting with people even online. So I then decided to just LDAR alone inside and cope with hobbies. I was forced to become even more socially inept and my social anxiety got worse. But I have since felt a strong need to interact with somebody again, which has been a struggle. I have tried anonymous chats, only for me to leave the chat immediately in fear of getting mocked. I have joined Discord servers, but chickened out and immediately left after just a hi. Yet, when once again I became brave enough to say something, I was ridiculed by cucks. I have realized that most online spaces are only filled with closed-minded normies, foids and faggots. That's why I joined this site, something which I have been contemplating for half a year; the treatment I've received has made me scared to even interact with other incels. I literally spent an hour contemplating whether to write this because of my social anxiety. I will probably regret this post and overthink it for a week. Soyciety did this to me. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE

I tried spending more time online throughout the years and eventually I got sick of it. I now crave real social interaction although i’m now too old for that.

 

[superpsycho]

I can't even send an audio message.

 

[retirednormie]

People think incels are antisocial by default, but they never account for the years of rejection, mockery and being treated like shit just for existing with such genetic disadvantages in appearance.

 

[Rapistcel]

I haven't talked to people besides family in years and gave up on socializing because of the shitty treatment I've received from normies and foids. I think if you socialize as an incel, you're a masochist.
All people look down on me for my looks; I look almost like a fucking 13-year-old because I STOPPED FUCKING GROWING at that age, so I'm 5'5 in a country where 6'0 tallfags and foids taller than me are common. In every social interaction, I'm infantilized, everything I say is stupid no matter what it is. I have zero friends now, but when I had "friends years ago, I got bullied by them too. Even other outcasts don't want anything to do with me.
I eventually forced myself to try to make friends online once, which was really tough for me. I used to spend several minutes, if not hours, just to send simple messages. Despite trying my best to be kind and interesting, I got bullied and called incel for being awkward. This made me become too afraid of interacting with people even online. So I then decided to just LDAR alone inside and cope with hobbies. I was forced to become even more socially inept and my social anxiety got worse. But I have since felt a strong need to interact with somebody again, which has been a struggle. I have tried anonymous chats, only for me to leave the chat immediately in fear of getting mocked. I have joined Discord servers, but chickened out and immediately left after just a hi. Yet, when once again I became brave enough to say something, I was ridiculed by cucks. I have realized that most online spaces are only filled with closed-minded normies, foids and faggots. That's why I joined this site, something which I have been contemplating for half a year; the treatment I've received has made me scared to even interact with other incels. I literally spent an hour contemplating whether to write this because of my social anxiety. I will probably regret this post and overthink it for a week. Soyciety did this to me. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE

I'm only low inhibition with this forum members.