- Jun 19, 2022
- 22d 14h 32m
Fuck, imagine ending up like this guy Being so in love with a girl that you can't even function properly while she's out there with someone else...damn
Reminds me of me, when I was 19 and had oneitis big time.Fuck, imagine ending up like this guy Being so in love with a girl that you can't even function properly while she's out there with someone else...damn
I'll be 41 in an few weeks. I've definitely calmed down a bit since I was 19-20.I do hope I won't make it to 41... can't imagine a life like this.
those normies deserve brutal torture and disfigurement. they knew very well and even had their fun with itSad to see a few normies come out of the woodwork after he was dead, saying "we all respected him, we had no idea he was so lonely, if only we had known we could have helped him meet someone" - OK pal. Could have, would have, should have... didn't though. Where were you when he was alive?
agemogs me brutallyI'll be 41 in an few weeks. I've definitely calmed down a bit since I was 19-20.
That's why reading about this guy, who was still fully oneitis heartbroken like a teenager at my age, was quite hard to read.
Sad to see a few normies come out of the woodwork after he was dead, saying "we all respected him, we had no idea he was so lonely, if only we had known we could have helped him meet someone" - OK pal. Could have, would have, should have... didn't though. Where were you when he was alive?
Not that it would have mattered... for a while in my late 20s and early 30s my normie friends covertly tried to set me up with women they thought I had a chance with. Unfortunately these women all perceived me exactly the same way as the general population did. (Surprise!)
So there is probably not a lot of value in wingman-normies for incels, although it is nice to know some people cared enough to try.
This could be true, but what @Defetivecuckachu said somewhere above is also important as you need to realize that this could happen to anyone. Of course, something went very wrong with this guy because at his age he was still deep into his darkest moments when he should have exited that phase by then.Don't feel bad for this guy roping if his relationship was successful he would be insulted us incels and gaslighting us. May this serves as a lesson of what female nature does to a cuck
People like him don't deserve sympathyThis could be true, but what @Defetivecuckachu said somewhere above is also important as you need to realize that this could happen to anyone. Of course, something went very wrong with this guy because at his age he was still deep into his darkest moments when he should have exited that phase by then.
This guy is also a perfect example of what I have been saying about "post-ascending":
Remember - people here want to "ascend" and if they do, they won't be ascending as a Chad or high smv Normie, you'd be ascending as whatever you are (more or less low smv male) and that's when even more problems could START.
Don't be so quick to think that if you get what you want from a foid (pretty looking & non-paid sex) and even some companionship, that the second it ends or is taken from you and you are left with a big punishing hole where you chest was that you wouldn't have the propensity to fall into a state EXACTLY like this Swanson fellow. Eventually, the pain and embarrassment was so much for him, that he off'd himself. This is the prime example of how the decay of Western cultural works out in the end.
Something like this. And the fact he was romantically idealising one of his students means he was likely rejected in one way or the other by many of his own peers and age group, so on the way to being an Incel in one way or the other.The lack of sympathy for the guy on this forum is mind-boggling. Aren't we here for the same reason why he shot himself?
41yo incel? fucking brutal man, old as fuck, ur more than double my age lolI have sympathy for anyone who's sad and in a shitty position.
I'm just surprised that a man of his age and experience, was bluepilled enough to think a beautiful young teenager on her way to university might seriously want to settle for a short ugly 42 year old loser like himself. The lack of faculty for critical thinking just astonishes me.
His story is a warning for how badly naive thinking can mess up your mental health and your life.
They end up losing their shit because their whole life they put pussy on a pedestal and eventually they can't lie to themselves anymore.
" all of my work and studies were all for nothing"
Very true. And this can happen.Yes he literally says it a few times in his page;
As in, not having a foid = having nothing.
(In fairness they struck him off from ever practicing again as a teacher, and it sounds like he was good at his job and was coping thru his career, so in that sense he lost more than just his teenaged fantasy GF.)
Agreed. And - There is an interesting take on this which provides much more detail than any existing flimsy behavioural Psychology model that I know of. The book was written by Rene Girard and explains "imitation" and memetic desire quite well, and as a result the sum and substance of how metaphysical desires arises.Normies talk about type of relationship dysfunction called co-dependency where couples who are destructive to each other stay together anyway because they can't face the idea of being alone again..
Thus guy seemed to be co-dependent with the idea of this foid as she was in his imagination, which was obviously a bit different than the real world her.
Correct. The problem is, that for some reason, he didn't learn the lessons that he should have learned before. My questions are, was he in relationships previous to this, and did he experience failure/reject before (one needs to experience it many times in fact) at the hands of a foid?All of which he might have been better prepared to deal with, if only he'd spent the previous 20+ years of his adult life learning and accepting blackpill reality, and learning to have realistic sensible expectations.
Well, here I would say that the expression of "blackpill" could be applied to anyone who has a major blind spot preventing them from seeing there reality when it has played out time and time again. So in that sense, we could say it can have a wider application than just mating behavior. But alas, the main thing which most Normies often don't see pertains to mating behavior, aesthetics and women.I mean some people on here talk about "the blackpill" like it's a way of life and a 24/7 full immersion religious cult. When all it really is, is a straightforward observation of how men and women are, and how dating and sex and relationships are as a result. It's not the secret to the universe, just human mating behaviour. But it's never been hard to observe, even before we had a cool edgy name for it.
. That's funny.30+ yo incel is fucking old to me man im just 17.
Magic. You want to learn magic ?no problem w u oldcels, just have no idea how u cope
Good to know the OP appreciated the effort. I did write an article on my substack about it, and I referenced some of answers in this thread in it so thanks for all the viewpoints. It still fascinates me this case for whatever reason, here's the article I wrote:OP here. I just wanted to say that this was tremendous work by you throughout and I really enjoyed it. The story struck a cord with me immediately and I felt so sad for the guy. The website, the song, the family, the despair he was in, the way he seemed like a nice guy and people clearly thought he was a good teacher and he helped a lot of people. His downward spiral was just so sad but extremely fascinating. He just completely snapped and realised his entire life had been pointless.
I think about his last days, the constant crying and depression and the moments leading up to him taking his life. It's just so sad. He even said himself that he was 22 years older than the girl and she probably wouldn't be interested in him anyway. It's just to brutal to go from being in love and seeing a future to being left kicked to the curb and having nothing to fall back on and no hope for the future.
At some point in my life I'd like to leave some flowers at his grave and visit the place in Mercyhurst where he killed himself, just to show a little respect to the guy. I would love to see an image of someone leaving flowers at the statue or even at his grave. I feel like he deserves to be remembered.
I just have to reiterate - GREAT WORK. You brought this story to life with insanely good sleuthing. I will come back to this thread sometimes, start playing Ethereal Remains and enjoy reading it. Thanks for your work.
RIP Christopher Swanson.