I look at old photos of myself from high school, I don't look that bad probably 5/10 and yet foids were still repulsed by me, it was likely the autism that doomed me, Now i look at myself in the mirror and i look horrid, my face fatter and uglier then before my body is also in bad shape, I used to be skinny now i'm skinny fat, just fucking brutal, it just makes me want to give up, I was already at my prime when i was 18 and what was my prime? being alone and mocked behind my back by foids who didn't like me, and it will probably continue to get worse, Makes me depressed that it ended up like this. I tried approaching foids when i was younger they all rejected me and i was much better looking before now that i have rotted what chance do i have now. 
