My last posts have been cheesy and repetitive because I am currently feeling extremely clingy, I cannot wrap my head around of not having received loved from this one girl and Ive been playing her in my head for 4 years like a virtual character making stories up in my head.
I never snap back to reality and when I do it dulls me and I stare at the void realizing how truly wasted I must be for a 24yr old to live like this.
This girl probably lived by now countless experiences / relationships and maybe is in her way to live with somebody else, settle, make a family, I am fucking chris chan, I make cartoon edited AI images of characters that supposedly resemble us in my head…
I completely lost my mind, not having being loved made me into a retarded manchild. I lost my friends I failed university I live with my parents still I do the same things I did at 15, I never had even a proper conversation with a girl, I truly don’t know shit.
It is looks, but most of you given a proper appearance would thrive, Im a retarded autistic pos, my mind is made up of random triggers tingles images online content, I’m not a real person, I’m not a man, I don’t have arguments or things to say to a girl.
When I say I wanna be loved I don’t even know what I’m talking about. I basically wanna a second mom that kisses me in the mouth and cuddles me like the stray dog I grew up to become. Ive no Idea of what “love” this. I don’t know shit, I couldn’t sit at a table and talk to the very girl who I love more than my life.
Im a tragedy, I’ve so many unresolved problems, I’m not well. Most of you are actually normal people. It is extremely dividing, I knew a Incel from tiktok, he looked atrocious but apart of feeling lonely the man got himself together he did things and went places.
I will have to kill myself or maybe enlist for the nearest conflict there’s no purpose for me here anymore.
I never snap back to reality and when I do it dulls me and I stare at the void realizing how truly wasted I must be for a 24yr old to live like this.
This girl probably lived by now countless experiences / relationships and maybe is in her way to live with somebody else, settle, make a family, I am fucking chris chan, I make cartoon edited AI images of characters that supposedly resemble us in my head…
I completely lost my mind, not having being loved made me into a retarded manchild. I lost my friends I failed university I live with my parents still I do the same things I did at 15, I never had even a proper conversation with a girl, I truly don’t know shit.
It is looks, but most of you given a proper appearance would thrive, Im a retarded autistic pos, my mind is made up of random triggers tingles images online content, I’m not a real person, I’m not a man, I don’t have arguments or things to say to a girl.
When I say I wanna be loved I don’t even know what I’m talking about. I basically wanna a second mom that kisses me in the mouth and cuddles me like the stray dog I grew up to become. Ive no Idea of what “love” this. I don’t know shit, I couldn’t sit at a table and talk to the very girl who I love more than my life.
Im a tragedy, I’ve so many unresolved problems, I’m not well. Most of you are actually normal people. It is extremely dividing, I knew a Incel from tiktok, he looked atrocious but apart of feeling lonely the man got himself together he did things and went places.
I will have to kill myself or maybe enlist for the nearest conflict there’s no purpose for me here anymore.
