Long time no see. I haven’t posted on this forum in forever—tried to stay positive, tried to be ‘whitepilled,’ but it completely backfired. No matter what I do, things just keep getting worse. My health is in ruins. My chronic GERD makes me burp constantly, which wrecks my throat, gives me shortness of breath, and has destroyed my teeth over the years. Just today, the filling on my bottom left canine came off.
And life? It’s just one shitty thing after another. Last fall, at 3 AM, my dad grabbed me by the neck, dragged me out of the house, and threw me onto the road, screaming at me to get the hell out—just because I didn’t want to go to this garbage college I’m stuck in now. A place where I’m laughed at, made fun of, and have zero friends.
Every single day feels like mental agony. No matter how hard I try, everything just keeps falling apart. My whole existence feels like torture—just nonstop anger, pain, and stress, year after year. My head is pounding from all of it. As I’m writing this, my hands are shaking, my eyes are tearing up. The physical and mental pain is unbearable.
I just wish someone else could take over my life while I disappear—just fade away and sleep forever in GTA 5.
And life? It’s just one shitty thing after another. Last fall, at 3 AM, my dad grabbed me by the neck, dragged me out of the house, and threw me onto the road, screaming at me to get the hell out—just because I didn’t want to go to this garbage college I’m stuck in now. A place where I’m laughed at, made fun of, and have zero friends.
Every single day feels like mental agony. No matter how hard I try, everything just keeps falling apart. My whole existence feels like torture—just nonstop anger, pain, and stress, year after year. My head is pounding from all of it. As I’m writing this, my hands are shaking, my eyes are tearing up. The physical and mental pain is unbearable.
I just wish someone else could take over my life while I disappear—just fade away and sleep forever in GTA 5.
