It's Over Im sure everyone here always had that lingering feeling that they would NEVER fit in, but it took a while to just accept it...

[Lookslikeit]

You know, i think there was always something fundamentally wrong in me. Not in what i do (that hardly, if EVER, matters) but something about my composition.

Not just the looks. I have a theory that, if the pheromones that you exhale are too different (or too shitty, idk) from the people close to you, i think that sends an unconscious message to others that they should ditch you and leave you to die alone.

Another one is the snowball effect. That simply means if you were able to fit in nicely enough in your early childhood, no matter how appaling looking or weird deep down you were, you were going to be fine throught your whole life.

Or the butterfly effect. If you made one single bad (or good) enough move in a pivotal moment in your life, everything would change drastically, for good or worse.

I dunno man. Im starting to think the blackpill (in its present form) doesnt explain everything. There's too many variables at play for it to be just looks.

 

[Lookslikeit]

It's the NTpill

I dont think its just neurotypicality. If you're not autistic (literally autistic) or have another underlying mental health issue, then things get complicated.

Bcs then its just bad socializing skills, but it turns back to the snowball effect i was talking about.

If you dont socialize properly while you very very young, chances are you're fucked FOR LIFE.

 

[Lookslikeit]

I socialised well around the ages of 6-9, then everything went downhill

You probably THINK you socialized well, but you didnt.

I had the same problem. I remembered my 7-10 age pretty fondly, till i realized i just had a lot of aquaintances (or colleagues, i dunno how to say it in english) in those days but few ACTUAL friends, you know, ride or die, people who have your back kind of ones. Actually, 0, now that i think about it...

Just bcs you talk to a lot of people doesnt mean those people even consider you anything other than some pass time...

 

[Lookslikeit]

I did socialise well back then.

Then, why things went downhill, bro? Socializing is different than having a circle of people who will always have you back, in one way or another.

I know a foid who got to talk to her friends who she didnt see for 20 FUCKING yrs. I cant think of anyone i even REMEMBER from that much back...

 

[UglyDumbass]

I socialised well around the ages of 6-9, then everything went downhill

same bro