imbored21
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I went to college. I got good grades. I got a job at a prestigious company. None of it matters if you have social anxiety. I haven't had a friend in over a decade. I've never had a girlfriend. I still cannot hold a conversation despite having to talk to people everyday. I'm 25 and completely FUCKED. I'm so pathetic I can't even bring myself to rope. I've been rotting for the last decade on forums like these as my only source of social interaction. I'm actually so fucked it's insane. There are people my age with families and I have the life experiences of a first grader. I don't remember the last time I left my house for anything other than fast food or work. It must have been years.
Actually I did hang out with coworkers on 2 occasions over the last year. One was with a gay coworker who liked me and asked me out after I quit (not a fakecel, men don't count). The second was with coworkers at my current job. We got lunch on a saturday and I sat there quietly while they were all talking nonstop like normies. I felt so out of place and pathetic. I was embarassed to face them the following Monday. I don't fit in with normies at all.
Oh god and I've been spending my entire pay checks on escorts for the past 2 years. I haven't saved a dime since meeting my prostitute oneitis. Now she's gone and I'm still spending money and girls I don't even like. I'm literally so pathetic it's hard to breathe.
I'm going to the doctor for the first time in 4 years later this month and I hope to god he finds something that will qualify me for euthanasia. I'm ready for this life to be over. It's shit.
Actually I did hang out with coworkers on 2 occasions over the last year. One was with a gay coworker who liked me and asked me out after I quit (not a fakecel, men don't count). The second was with coworkers at my current job. We got lunch on a saturday and I sat there quietly while they were all talking nonstop like normies. I felt so out of place and pathetic. I was embarassed to face them the following Monday. I don't fit in with normies at all.
Oh god and I've been spending my entire pay checks on escorts for the past 2 years. I haven't saved a dime since meeting my prostitute oneitis. Now she's gone and I'm still spending money and girls I don't even like. I'm literally so pathetic it's hard to breathe.
I'm going to the doctor for the first time in 4 years later this month and I hope to god he finds something that will qualify me for euthanasia. I'm ready for this life to be over. It's shit.