I haven't left my house in days. I haven't seen a human being. I ordered a pizza and couldn't even face the guy I had to leave the money in the front and a note to just leave the pizza there. I have a infected abscess on my ass that is painful from being in bed all day and being un-hygenic. I've been popping it for the last few days and puss keeps on coming out. Jesus Christ I hate my life. I can't believe I've ended up this way. alone in a big ass house. no friends or family. no human contact. i can't even get out from bed to feed myself or shower. i really don't wanna go to the hospital. im completely fine right now (meds are controlling my schizophrenia completely) but fuck being mentally sane brings me to the realization that im a subhuman piece of shit.
