SuicideFuel I'm seriously considering roping today

[Teru Mikami]

Suicide has been a recurring thought for as long as I remember. I've never ever, felt comfortable in my own skin, I've never experienced love. I hate being human and I hate being alive, I've never had any real friends. I'm all alone, I was born to be a drifter, a wanderer

Living with OCD is unbearable and nobody cares, it sucks the fun out of my copes, it makes my daily life a slog, living is torture. And the Jewpills I take for it, Sertaline only makes me more numb, I feel like a husk. There really is no winning for me

I think I mentioned I haven't cried in years, probably a decade or more at this point (possibly because of the Jewpills) but I'm crying as I write this and I feel like such a fucking sissy faggot worthless nigger for it and I hate it even more that I'm admitting to it, I have nobody to hear or see me cry regardless, nobody to wipe my tears

I hate myself and I hate my existence, I hate everything about myself, I don't even bother with classical self-harm with blades and cutting, I just punch myself until I'm in too much pain to continue

There is no reason for me to continue living, I'm not wanted anywhere, I have no friends, I don't fit in anywhere, I feel like an outcast even from this forum

I've always wanted to stab myself to death but I think I'll just get hit by a bus or train instead

I can't even put into words how much I hate myself and this existence, I want it to end, I prayed so many times for God to kill me in my sleep, since I was a child

Nobody will miss me when I'm gone, I've always been invisible wherever I've gone, my parents will move on in a day probably

I was born to be used, manipulated and turned into a pawn by those with better genetics or better luck and I hate it

There's really nothing I can do anymore except end this existence

I can't even write a proper final post if this really is the end, my grammar is terrible and I don't even know how to continue this

I always tried to be a "good person" and treat people well, the way I'd like to be treated, I've always tried to help people whenever I could

But a good "personality" didn't do shit for me with my subhuman genetics

I have no redeeming qualities, I'm retarded genetic waste

Even on this forum I tried to stay out of drama or beef and I tried to treat all of you like my real brothers, I always wanted a brother growing up and I got a taste of that from this forum

If I don't kill myself then see you all tomorrow, but if I really rope, goodbye to you all

 

[Teru Mikami]

I'm such a failure I posted it before finishing I hate myself so much I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT

 

[Frzk72cel]

Get off the pills...Get. Off. The. Pills.

 

[AdExpress]

damn how old r u bro

 

[unhingedsamsung]

Sertaline only make me more numb,

Brutal

I was on prozac ritallin and adderall when I was 12-14 I’m pretty sure it fucked up the development of my genitalia

 

[LastGerman]

Suicide has been a recurring thought for as long as I remember. I've never ever, felt comfortable in my own skin, I've never experienced love. I hate being human and I hate being alive, I've never had any real friends. I'm all alone, I was born to be a drifter, a wanderer

Living with OCD is unbearable and nobody cares, it sucks the fun out of my copes, it makes my daily life a slog, living is torture. And the Jewpills I take for it, Sertaline only make me more numb, I feel like a husk. There really is no winning for me

Why would you end yourself if you have a big penis? Why do you not feel uncomfortable in your own skin if you have a big penis?

 

[Teru Mikami]

Why would you end yourself if you have a big penis? Why do you not feel uncomfortable in your own skin if you have a big penis?

It doesn't matter, I hate everything about myself including my genitals

 

[Teru Mikami]

Get off the pills...Get. Off. The. Pills.

I was worse off without them, every day was complete suffering

 

[Teru Mikami]

damn how old r u bro

22

 

[Frzk72cel]

I was worse off without them, every day was complete suffering

That's because you got used to them and that kind of pills are dangerous if quit cold turkey fuckers should make magic shrooms legal instead of this crap

 

[LastGerman]

It doesn't matter, I hate everything about myself including my genitals

It does not matter? It does matter. Why do you hate it? This does not even make sense. I hate myself. I hate my small penis. There is no reason for you to hate it. I wish, I had your size. I would be so happy. I would be content with life. I would finally be able to experience pleasure and joy for the first time.

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

It's over

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I can strongly relate to you man, and I am sorry you are in this position, but please don't rope unless you have no other choice

 

[LastGerman]

I can strongly relate to you man, and I am sorry you are in this position, but please don't rope unless you have no other choice

You relate to him? He has a big penis. There is no reason to be like this if you have a big penis. It is impossible. If you have a big penis your life become full of pleasure and joyful. I tis like being happy for the first time in life.

 

[kerberos41]

22

At the age of 22, you are still very young and you still have a chance. You cry because you are sad, because society and fate have been so unfair to you, not because you are a weakling. I believe that even the toughest man in the world would cry very sadly if placed in your position. But personally, I don't think it's the time to rope yet. Maybe 35 is a limit, because at 22 you are still too young and you might still have a chance to get out of this situation, although it's very difficult.

 

[jackhanma]

dont kill yourself. dont give them what they want.

 

[kerberos41]

Perhaps what you want to kill is the pain, but the only way to do it is rope. This is not your fault. Although "blaming others more and self-examining less" is a joke, I think there really isn't any emotion that comes out of nowhere. Every emotion has a responsible person behind it. If you always have inexplicable emotional breakdowns when facing something or someone, don't blame yourself first. It might just be that you heard a whistle and recalled a sharp pain.

 

[TooSomething]

Get off the pills...Get. Off. The. Pills.

 

[LastGerman]

At the age of 22, you are still very young and you still have a chance. You cry because you are sad, because society and fate have been so unfair to you, not because you are a weakling. I believe that even the toughest man in the world would cry very sadly if placed in your position. But personally, I don't think it's the time to rope yet. Maybe 35 is a limit, because at 22 you are still too young and you might still have a chance to get out of this situation, although it's very difficult.

dont kill yourself. dont give them what they want.

Perhaps what you want to kill is the pain, but the only way to do it is rope. This is not your fault. Although "blaming others more and self-examining less" is a joke, I think there really isn't any emotion that comes out of nowhere. Every emotion has a responsible person behind it. If you always have inexplicable emotional breakdowns when facing something or someone, don't blame yourself first. It might just be that you heard a whistle and recalled a sharp pain.

Why should you kill yourself if you have a big penis?

 

[coping_manlet]

What method are you using

 

[TooSomething]

dont kill yourself. dont give them what they want.

 

[InMemoriam]

dont do it if you not sure that youll go 100 percent

 

[Vakasneb3856]

Please don't. that will be one less person to talk to on here. find some form of cope or meaning to have outside of dating, thats the only way really to deal with our situation.

 

[La Longue Fourchett]

Man, I dont know what much I can say.
I've been there for many years. While it wasn't serious enough for me to get on pills but I was self-destructive.
After a while, you just get over it.
I don't know how to put it. "it sure sucked but at least I'm on the other side now"
Mind you, your life doesnt get magically better.
I had my supervisor make an example of me today for asking for a time off 3 months in advance. Apparently it was too soon and when I asked what is an appropriate amount of time, i was told that I'm being difficult.
Anyways, just hang on.
Despite how worthless you feel, there is someone around you whose life will get worse if you were gone.

 

[Runt171]

I'm such a failure I posted it before finishing I hate myself so much I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT

this happened way too many times to me too

Nearly every post I make

 

[Runt171]

Good luck either way Idk ehat else to say to you apart from that

Theres no real answers or fixes to any of our problems as far as I can see (unless your a fakecel)

 

[I want to believe]

I'm older than you.

 

[LonerLothario]

I had a friend with OCD, you don’t “beat” OCD if you try it will always win, you have to release the resistance against the compulsion otherwise your brain won’t allow you to forget about it

 

[sosis1ochka]

It's all up to you. Even roping is your decision and... considering reality, I wouldn't say I can blame people for roping or any other sui thing

 

[Grodd]

I can strongly relate to you man, and I am sorry you are in this position, but please don't rope unless you have no other choice

 

[Teru Mikami]

Unfortunately I'm still alive, I feel ashamed, embarrassed and like a coward because I couldn't override my instincts of self-preservation

I feel ashamed to even show my face here, I feel like an attention whoring faggot for not doing it, if I ever make a post like this again, I'll make sure I'm going to do it 100% before posting, I fucking hate myself for not just killing myself

 

[Violet loner]

Unfortunately I'm still alive, I feel ashamed, embarrassed and like a coward because I couldn't override my instincts of self-preservation

I feel ashamed to even show my face here, I feel like an attention whoring faggot for not doing it, if I ever make a post like this again, I'll make sure I'm going to do it 100% before posting, I fucking hate myself for not just killing myself

Don't feel ashamed. You're doing will of incels by continuing living

 

[KetamineCel]

i’d love to just have some easy way to end all this shit, but every possible way is some sort of agony

 

[Teru Mikami]

i’d love to just have some easy way to end all this shit, but every possible way is some sort of agony

 

[LonerLothario]

don’t rope you are another good poster on here

 

[shymasaski]

Unfortunately I'm still alive, I feel ashamed, embarrassed and like a coward because I couldn't override my instincts of self-preservation

I feel ashamed to even show my face here, I feel like an attention whoring faggot for not doing it, if I ever make a post like this again, I'll make sure I'm going to do it 100% before posting, I fucking hate myself for not just killing myself

If you are going to rope why not to go on a killing spree or just rape some foids. You Still gonna Die so you have nothing to lose

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Good luck
hope you succeed

 

[SlayerSlayer]

you commit seppuku ,

AND A FOID LAUGHS BECAUSE THEY FEEL SAFE

 

[Teru Mikami]

you commit seppuku ,

AND A FOID LAUGHS BECAUSE THEY FEEL SAFE

Lifefuel

 

[BPJ]

why would he rope