bannedincel
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A couple of days ago I saw someone die. He had a heart attack right infront of me. Saw his face lose soul and saw him die after half an hour in agony. This man is someone I considered an acquaintance. Someone I had many pleaseant conversations with and he was always so nice and Ive known him for yeaes.
When he died I pretended to be concerned like everyone around me. I saw one guy who barely knew him with tears in his eyes. I was watching averyone else and trying to put on a show.
But all I actually cared about was how this would affect me and my situation. If things would change here. That's it. I realized i dont feel real emotions. I don't feel love. Only care if it affects my life and routine.
I just wonder if I was always like this or inceldom turned me into this
When he died I pretended to be concerned like everyone around me. I saw one guy who barely knew him with tears in his eyes. I was watching averyone else and trying to put on a show.
But all I actually cared about was how this would affect me and my situation. If things would change here. That's it. I realized i dont feel real emotions. I don't feel love. Only care if it affects my life and routine.
I just wonder if I was always like this or inceldom turned me into this