that's an interesting thing to read,honestly i kinda see myself in you, I've always tried to fit in society,and i mean, I'm not like secluded but i don't feel like i belong in this society, i share some kind of hatred for it, thank you for sharing the wiki I'll give it a look, the reason i joined is not only to form connections and find like-minded people but also to gain more knowledge because i want to know why,what,how and everything about people that have it way worse than me, I'm not the one with the worst fate probably but i did think about suicide since the age of 10,mostly because of my looks,love life and just people not liking me for reasons i don't even understand why, at the start i thought it was about my looks, but after i fixed my looks (i think i did now although I'm still insecure and see myself differently from how others see me) it's just not everything about looks,just because I'm not a normie and I'm a little bit more niche (I'm not that niche to be part of the community nor that normie to be part of the normies so i just stand there alone) i just get treated differently, but it's probably my fault too after years of self isolation and over focusing on myself, so another reason could also be to vent i guess yeah.