smith
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- May 4, 2018
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I do not understand why my romantic life is so non-existent.
I have always felt like the biggest loser ever. I have so much trouble showing love. Nearly like an autistic person.
And I have always been doing great at everything I have tried except for love. Being stubborn and innovative helps. So many successes, so many achievements, and yet women hate me.
And yet I am nearing my 19th birthday as a person who has had no experience with women. None at all.
They always exclude me. They have always ghosted me, very soon after they had got to know me.
None of them meets my very limited expectations and I have met all I could imagine.
Except for being tall. Or handsome.
The women even tortured me by faking interest in me to then ghost me soon after.
I have not seen my oneitis since 2016. Nothing changed in my feelings. Be curses, brain chemistry.
I hope to clear my mind with this post before doing it. There's no way around it.
I am roping tomorrow.
I don't know what to do. I have survived so many horrible health problems since August. I even managed to heal depression. Now I am just so numb, only crying before sleep
I have always felt like the biggest loser ever. I have so much trouble showing love. Nearly like an autistic person.
And I have always been doing great at everything I have tried except for love. Being stubborn and innovative helps. So many successes, so many achievements, and yet women hate me.
And yet I am nearing my 19th birthday as a person who has had no experience with women. None at all.
They always exclude me. They have always ghosted me, very soon after they had got to know me.
None of them meets my very limited expectations and I have met all I could imagine.
Except for being tall. Or handsome.
The women even tortured me by faking interest in me to then ghost me soon after.
I have not seen my oneitis since 2016. Nothing changed in my feelings. Be curses, brain chemistry.
I hope to clear my mind with this post before doing it. There's no way around it.
I am roping tomorrow.
I don't know what to do. I have survived so many horrible health problems since August. I even managed to heal depression. Now I am just so numb, only crying before sleep