I'm losing my actual fucking mind over people's reactions to my face

[the_only_ugly_YWG]

I have OCD too extremely bad so I just obsess and reply every negative stare and treatment in my head nonstop

It's actually getting extremely fucking terrifying for me because I start spiraling and thinking about going ER and just having st.bagelcel level outbursts at the gym (the only space I regularly occupy besides my house since I'm NEET), I don't WANT to have these fucking horrible unspeakably violent thoughts but it's just something my brain starts doing at completely random times and there's nothing I can do to stop it besides just wait for it to calm down a bit

Everything is just so fucked up, it's so fucked up that people just stare at me and treat me like shit because of my fucking face, the fact that I make women so uncomfortable by doing nothing

It's making me have panic attacks because I'm so aware of my fucked up thoughts towards people, I'm worried I will do something, I already anonymously messaged this foidlet from my gym who always stares at me to stop staring or ill finish her and her friends off one by one, it's just getting so scary to witness my mind fucking crumble like this

 

[Icarus]

Use that anger for your workouts. It's probably your only release. Eating slop and drinking will make you feel worse.

 

[Deco]

Good Lord I'm glad I don't have this otherwise I'd be just like you

People avoid me like the plague especially at public spaces

 

[KetamineCel]

are you on ocd meds?