I truly feel much more mentally healthy now that I no longer have any desire for a partner. Back when I used to have a desire for a partner all it ever did was make me miserable because I had a gut feeling I was always going to fail so I was going after something I knew I was going to fail at. Wether or not someone likes someone or not is beyond my control so it makes the most amount of sense to not care because if someone does not like me I have no control over it.
Here’s how having a desire for a partner made me miserable I’ll start with how I would never ask them out because I could tell the way they did not want a social interaction with me was a sign they saw me as someone who was only wanting to talk to them because they where dealing with a guy who wants a relationship so what they could recognise always made it so they had a reason to make the interaction one sided with signs of wanting to evade me.
To go on to the next way in which having a desire for a partner made me miserable was how it made me sick with insecurities my insecurities made my mind feel like absolute hell when I wanted a partner. The problem with insecurities would only grow worse when people would try to make me feel inferior to them by belittling me degrading me and ridiculing me for my desire for a partner.
I also had a problem with feeling sick with jealousy when I used to have a desire for a partner it really was not healthy in any type of way while being something that highlighted my insecurities. to mention another problem a desire for a partner gave me I will talk about stalking I quit stalking because I felt ashamed of my self for doing so I only stalked due to the problem of inadequacy being the guy who gets socially left out way to easily along with emotional attachment being a cause of my stalking so I choose to eliminate the emotional attachment to cure my self. I feel healthier now that the emotional attachment is gone because a one sided emotional attachment is a really unhealthy cause that will only ever bring on inevitable failure
Here’s how having a desire for a partner made me miserable I’ll start with how I would never ask them out because I could tell the way they did not want a social interaction with me was a sign they saw me as someone who was only wanting to talk to them because they where dealing with a guy who wants a relationship so what they could recognise always made it so they had a reason to make the interaction one sided with signs of wanting to evade me.
To go on to the next way in which having a desire for a partner made me miserable was how it made me sick with insecurities my insecurities made my mind feel like absolute hell when I wanted a partner. The problem with insecurities would only grow worse when people would try to make me feel inferior to them by belittling me degrading me and ridiculing me for my desire for a partner.
I also had a problem with feeling sick with jealousy when I used to have a desire for a partner it really was not healthy in any type of way while being something that highlighted my insecurities. to mention another problem a desire for a partner gave me I will talk about stalking I quit stalking because I felt ashamed of my self for doing so I only stalked due to the problem of inadequacy being the guy who gets socially left out way to easily along with emotional attachment being a cause of my stalking so I choose to eliminate the emotional attachment to cure my self. I feel healthier now that the emotional attachment is gone because a one sided emotional attachment is a really unhealthy cause that will only ever bring on inevitable failure
