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And I'm upset. I just realized I've been in my 20's for 3 years now. I'm a fucking adult whose been out of high school since I was 18 and I've done nothing. I've worked shitty jobs, I live with my parents, and I'm about to finish college. I've never had a girlfriend and I'm a virgin. High school seems like so long ago and I didn't take the time to even try an enjoy it. I fucked up every opportunity to make friends or be a normal person. There is no reason for me to live. I have nothing to offer the world or anyone person. I make no one happy or elevate them at all. I mean nothing to anyone. By all criteria, I should kill myself. But I don't because I'm a pussy little faggot whose scared of dying.
When I was a little boy I though things would be different. In elementary school I was a fairly normal kid. I though getting a girlfriend, getting money, having friends and being normal was par for the course.I though it as something everyone was guaranteed. None of that happened, everything I saw on tv and in movies didn't happen. No fun adventures, no hobbies, no attention from anyone. I never won any competitions, I wasn't a good student, I didn't score a winning play, I didn't get the girl, or any girl.
My life is just starting and its over. I've already blown my 20s. I just feel so much shame and humiliation being virgin at this age. I'm a fucking white male born in America. I should have everything going for me but I'm still unhappy because I have no social relations or social skills. I don't have friends, I don't relate to any of my family members my age and thus never communicate with them. At university no one talks to me and at work I'm ignored. I just can't believe it all went so wrong.
When I was a little boy I though things would be different. In elementary school I was a fairly normal kid. I though getting a girlfriend, getting money, having friends and being normal was par for the course.I though it as something everyone was guaranteed. None of that happened, everything I saw on tv and in movies didn't happen. No fun adventures, no hobbies, no attention from anyone. I never won any competitions, I wasn't a good student, I didn't score a winning play, I didn't get the girl, or any girl.
My life is just starting and its over. I've already blown my 20s. I just feel so much shame and humiliation being virgin at this age. I'm a fucking white male born in America. I should have everything going for me but I'm still unhappy because I have no social relations or social skills. I don't have friends, I don't relate to any of my family members my age and thus never communicate with them. At university no one talks to me and at work I'm ignored. I just can't believe it all went so wrong.