Sasukecel
Living is torture.
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I'll try to make what I write short and understandable.
The reason why I like sleeping now is because I hate being awake. I realized I should try to do the things I need to do as fast as possible so I can go to sleep as fast as possible to escape this hell of a reality. I slept in twice today until my Mom forced me to get up.
The psychological effects I'm feeling due to the situation I'm in are similar to this guy who got gangraped in front of his girlfriend.
View: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/e8gjky/raped_in_front_of_my_girlfriend_feeling_like/
I'm not a fucking fag, don't interpret it the wrong way and be a immature retard. I'll explain why it's similar. The psychological effects are everlasting. It's emasculation. I wasn't physically raped but I was verbally raped. I can never have pride in myself and I feel submission due to the fact I've been through an extremely humiliating experience. But with me, it's global, for him it's only 5 people who know.
People including my family use the Fitxfearless video as leverage to emasculate me. I was arguing with someone under the tiktok comments of a video I made 3 months ago, and I remember 2 comments I'm paraphrasing "you're not all that, fitx should humiliate you again" and "Why you so pressed, you're my bitch."
Rotting and hiding are stupid. If I rotted, my brother would use it against me. He would be the chad in High school doing sports and having sex, and he would talk shit. Hide and accept being a humilation? Hiding would only emasculate me further so fuck that.
I want to revolt. I value revolting over financial security, because I don't want to be a fucking coward. What are ugly people doing to revolt against lookism and unfair treatment in society? Nothing. The NTs could have done something, the whites could have done something. If no one is doing anything, then the ugly, autistic nigger is going to do something because the incels who are way more competent and smarter than me don't seem to be doing anything. I'll revolt alone. I'll tell the truth. That I tried to succeed since I was 14, it was fucking unfair that I got virally humilated, and it's unfair that ugly people are treated unfairly in society and aren't allowed to succeed. Racism and sexism don't exist in 1st world countries, only lookism does.
The entire system is a scam. "Incels should stay on the low and obey the rules." To get fucking nothing in return? The neets, the shooters didn't obey the rules which is why they're smarter. "If society is unfair, don't contribute to it." "If society is unfair, punish those who have it fair." Both are better mentalities.
My online footprint is already fucked. I could try to hide for the rest of my life but that would be a cucked existence. When I'm caught up in University, I'm going to fucking revolt. "You're throwing away your life." My life was already fucking ruined 3 months ago, the day I went on that fucking call. Ugly people should have fucking rights, and ugly women should stop being selfish, and incels should if they still desire normies or stacies. Sub5 men should be with sub5 women, normies should be with normies, chads should be with stacies, It should be illegal for anyone to have relationships outside of their bracket. I will gladly settle for a 3/10 sheboon, because I'm a 3/10 autist. That's what I deserve, but women date up which is why inceldom exists.
I would rather die a broke failure and expose the unfair world to the public (as I already am a public humilation), then to live a cucked hiding existence working some shitty job, shutting up about all of the unfairness (and still be a public humilation anyways.)
I was overthinking a lot, i didn't know the right path to take. I wanted to kill myself, I didn't know if I should drop out/stay in University, I didn't know if I should hide or not hide, but I firmly know my path now. "Publicly revolt against the unfairness of the world, no matter what."
The reason why I like sleeping now is because I hate being awake. I realized I should try to do the things I need to do as fast as possible so I can go to sleep as fast as possible to escape this hell of a reality. I slept in twice today until my Mom forced me to get up.
The psychological effects I'm feeling due to the situation I'm in are similar to this guy who got gangraped in front of his girlfriend.
View: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/e8gjky/raped_in_front_of_my_girlfriend_feeling_like/
I'm not a fucking fag, don't interpret it the wrong way and be a immature retard. I'll explain why it's similar. The psychological effects are everlasting. It's emasculation. I wasn't physically raped but I was verbally raped. I can never have pride in myself and I feel submission due to the fact I've been through an extremely humiliating experience. But with me, it's global, for him it's only 5 people who know.
People including my family use the Fitxfearless video as leverage to emasculate me. I was arguing with someone under the tiktok comments of a video I made 3 months ago, and I remember 2 comments I'm paraphrasing "you're not all that, fitx should humiliate you again" and "Why you so pressed, you're my bitch."
Rotting and hiding are stupid. If I rotted, my brother would use it against me. He would be the chad in High school doing sports and having sex, and he would talk shit. Hide and accept being a humilation? Hiding would only emasculate me further so fuck that.
I want to revolt. I value revolting over financial security, because I don't want to be a fucking coward. What are ugly people doing to revolt against lookism and unfair treatment in society? Nothing. The NTs could have done something, the whites could have done something. If no one is doing anything, then the ugly, autistic nigger is going to do something because the incels who are way more competent and smarter than me don't seem to be doing anything. I'll revolt alone. I'll tell the truth. That I tried to succeed since I was 14, it was fucking unfair that I got virally humilated, and it's unfair that ugly people are treated unfairly in society and aren't allowed to succeed. Racism and sexism don't exist in 1st world countries, only lookism does.
The entire system is a scam. "Incels should stay on the low and obey the rules." To get fucking nothing in return? The neets, the shooters didn't obey the rules which is why they're smarter. "If society is unfair, don't contribute to it." "If society is unfair, punish those who have it fair." Both are better mentalities.
My online footprint is already fucked. I could try to hide for the rest of my life but that would be a cucked existence. When I'm caught up in University, I'm going to fucking revolt. "You're throwing away your life." My life was already fucking ruined 3 months ago, the day I went on that fucking call. Ugly people should have fucking rights, and ugly women should stop being selfish, and incels should if they still desire normies or stacies. Sub5 men should be with sub5 women, normies should be with normies, chads should be with stacies, It should be illegal for anyone to have relationships outside of their bracket. I will gladly settle for a 3/10 sheboon, because I'm a 3/10 autist. That's what I deserve, but women date up which is why inceldom exists.
I would rather die a broke failure and expose the unfair world to the public (as I already am a public humilation), then to live a cucked hiding existence working some shitty job, shutting up about all of the unfairness (and still be a public humilation anyways.)
I was overthinking a lot, i didn't know the right path to take. I wanted to kill myself, I didn't know if I should drop out/stay in University, I didn't know if I should hide or not hide, but I firmly know my path now. "Publicly revolt against the unfairness of the world, no matter what."