Everytime I prayed to God nothing happened. I saw so many christians online talking about how jesus changed their life and how they have conversations with God. Then I noticed something: most born again christians I saw online were chads and stacies. And ALL born again christians were either ex muslims, or drug addicted sex havers. I cannot connect with God no matter how much I pray. I have so much brain fog that I don't even feel or care about anything until I need something. Maybe I really am just an agnostic who is just scared of going to hell. I tried everything. I tried praying which did nothing, and I tried reading the bible, but because of my retarded brain I couldn't read and remember much of it and I eventually just gave up. Why was I born so retarded and ugly that I never had a chance in the first place God, why? Why am I so cursed, why?
