Coldone666
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I guess this will be my intro post, I signed up a few days ago and have commented but this is my 1st post so here is some details of me before I get to the story.
36YO Virgin. Have some fucked up chromosome mutation so I'm incredibly skinny, i think it's the same chromosome as Autism. I look like i have anorexia. Small skinny head and brain.
Really bad Overbite and TMJ. Missing front tooth so have to wear a plate all day. Super ugly. Bow Legged. Malformed toes. Small dick. Hip and knee tendons are fucked so in huge pain all the time. Avoidant Personality Disorder. Apathy. Dumb. Maybe Autism.
Ok so there is this girl at work I'm in love with, she's barely more then half my age and looks like an Angel from Heaven, she's been here since the end of last year and I'm completely obsessed with her. I stalked the internet for pictures of her and turned them into my PC Wallpaper, i downloaded her Tik Tok videos as well. Whenever I'm near her i panic and my brain melts and i have to look away its so cringe, I've tried to talk to her but she usually ignores me and acts like i don't exist. She's a 10 and I'm a pathetic Subhuman 2, why would she talk to a loser like me lol.
Anyway this new guy is at work and for some reason he is being nice to me which is really weird, He's super Extroverted plus younger and good looking, maybe he is just using me for attention until he gets bored, nobody could like me as a person. Anyway he has invited me and 1 other dude to a party along with 3 women (including my crush). I know the other 4 (we all work for the same place but are separate for the whole day except for a few mins in morning and avo).
Anyway i haven't been to a party in literally years and years and years, don't have close friends, family live a thousand miles away and i never go out anywhere.
As soon as i get there my Anxiety and Autism and lack of being able to act like a normal person will kick in and it will be torture. I'll probably just be awkward, shy and creepy and scare/ intimidate everyone (they also wanna play games which will make it even worse) or I'll say something offensive and retarded because i drank too much. They will never talk to me again and i'll get in trouble from work or have to quit. And since my crush will be there it will be even worse, it will be hours and hours of torture.
It will probably be like school where i look retarded, everyone bullies me then i cry. What do i do? Sorry for Text Wall.
36YO Virgin. Have some fucked up chromosome mutation so I'm incredibly skinny, i think it's the same chromosome as Autism. I look like i have anorexia. Small skinny head and brain.
Really bad Overbite and TMJ. Missing front tooth so have to wear a plate all day. Super ugly. Bow Legged. Malformed toes. Small dick. Hip and knee tendons are fucked so in huge pain all the time. Avoidant Personality Disorder. Apathy. Dumb. Maybe Autism.
Ok so there is this girl at work I'm in love with, she's barely more then half my age and looks like an Angel from Heaven, she's been here since the end of last year and I'm completely obsessed with her. I stalked the internet for pictures of her and turned them into my PC Wallpaper, i downloaded her Tik Tok videos as well. Whenever I'm near her i panic and my brain melts and i have to look away its so cringe, I've tried to talk to her but she usually ignores me and acts like i don't exist. She's a 10 and I'm a pathetic Subhuman 2, why would she talk to a loser like me lol.
Anyway this new guy is at work and for some reason he is being nice to me which is really weird, He's super Extroverted plus younger and good looking, maybe he is just using me for attention until he gets bored, nobody could like me as a person. Anyway he has invited me and 1 other dude to a party along with 3 women (including my crush). I know the other 4 (we all work for the same place but are separate for the whole day except for a few mins in morning and avo).
Anyway i haven't been to a party in literally years and years and years, don't have close friends, family live a thousand miles away and i never go out anywhere.
As soon as i get there my Anxiety and Autism and lack of being able to act like a normal person will kick in and it will be torture. I'll probably just be awkward, shy and creepy and scare/ intimidate everyone (they also wanna play games which will make it even worse) or I'll say something offensive and retarded because i drank too much. They will never talk to me again and i'll get in trouble from work or have to quit. And since my crush will be there it will be even worse, it will be hours and hours of torture.
It will probably be like school where i look retarded, everyone bullies me then i cry. What do i do? Sorry for Text Wall.