I’m feeling hopeless in life

[Michael15651]

I’ve been out of work for a month. Almost died because of anemia and passing out. Also fractured my hand (by passing out) and today got my wisdom teeth removed.

I’m good to return back to work Monday. But I don’t want to go back to a job I hate. The job that’s on the verge of firing me.

I loved being in the hospital. I loved the anesthesia. I loved feeling like I didn’t have to worry about anything.

Now it’s back to reality. My one chance of dying and I fucked it up. I fucking hate myself.

 

[K1ng N0th1ng]

I loved being in the hospital. I loved the anesthesia. I loved feeling like I didn’t have to worry about anything.

I kind of relate, I oversleep a lot (whenever I'm not interrupted by nightmares) and it's such an underrated cope. I love the sensation of being unconscious and not thinking.

 

[_meh]

Brutal, sorry about that.

I've seen your posts here and you're a good poster, it would definitely be sad to see you go.

 

[_meh]

Some workplaces are pretty nasty and make it unbearable for you to be around, especially those ones dominated with women. So much politics involved in those sorts of work places. Hard to survive in those sorts of environment when many forces are working against you.

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

I'll probably end up the same way if I wagecuck

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

I’m good to return back to work Monday. But I don’t want to go back to a job I hate. The job that’s on the verge of firing me.

I loved being in the hospital. I loved the anesthesia. I loved feeling like I didn’t have to worry about anything.

Is neeting an option for you?

Now it’s back to reality. My one chance of dying and I fucked it up. I fucking hate myself.

I hate myself too. Seriously, there's absolutely no point in working if you don't have a loving wife or loving children. The only things to spend your money are on copes, food, and rent.

 

[Michael15651]

Brutal, sorry about that.

I've seen your posts here and you're a good poster, it would definitely be sad to see you go.

Ngl the past month being on disability has been a blessing. Been blasting gear, dialed in on my nutrition and training.

Even got two compliments today one for my vascularity and the other from an older 70 year old guy at the gym who said he always sees me there and can tell I’m a hard worker.

Lowkey want to do bodybuilding in the future if I put on more mass but with this dead end job and my financial status I don’t think I’ll live to make it happen.

The only things to spend your money are on copes, food, and rent.

And even then I’m short on cash cause all my money goes to the mortgage and utilizes. I have just enough left over to spend on gear and that’s it

 

[_meh]

Ngl the past month being on disability has been a blessing. Been blasting gear, dialed in on my nutrition and training.

Even got two compliments today one for my vascularity and the other from an older 70 year old guy at the gym who said he always sees me there and can tell I’m a hard worker.

Lowkey want to do bodybuilding in the future if I put on more mass but with this dead end job and my financial status I don’t think I’ll live to make it happen

Doing roids is low inhib.

You must have a crazy sex drive.

Do you escortcel?

 

[Izayacel]

Based yet unfortunate .

 

[BasedAdam]

The only comfort i feel these days is when im sleeping, i dont even dream, i just see nothing which is very calming. Nothing is nice

 

[Norville Wood]

I’ve been out of work for a month. Almost died because of anemia and passing out. Also fractured my hand (by passing out) and today got my wisdom teeth removed.

I’m good to return back to work Monday. But I don’t want to go back to a job I hate. The job that’s on the verge of firing me.

I loved being in the hospital. I loved the anesthesia. I loved feeling like I didn’t have to worry about anything.

Now it’s back to reality. My one chance of dying and I fucked it up. I fucking hate myself.

Man.

If you have to take some time off....

 

[Internalizzz]

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I’ve been out of work for a month. Almost died because of anemia and passing out. Also fractured my hand (by passing out) and today got my wisdom teeth removed.

I’m good to return back to work Monday. But I don’t want to go back to a job I hate. The job that’s on the verge of firing me.

I loved being in the hospital. I loved the anesthesia. I loved feeling like I didn’t have to worry about anything.

Now it’s back to reality. My one chance of dying and I fucked it up. I fucking hate myself.

lol tfw you’re only relief is being in a hospital bed for a month