LDAR I’m dealing with binge eating and severe alcohol abuse

[Hector]

I've started to binge eat like crazy and drink alcohol in order to cope with my stressful life as a 43 year old incel. I'm starting to gain weight again. My stomach looks like a damn beer belly now. I feel so fat and ugly. I'm just coping with the situation of getting beaten and humiliated, and recently also being fired from the job that I had for years. I drink a beer after another beer. I drink mostly just Budweiser. Sometimes vodka, but I tend to get really drunk on the vodka so I avoid it. I'm averaging around 4000+ calories a day easy now between binging and drinking beer at night to fall asleep because sleeping pills don’t work anymore since they gave me bad dreams. I know it's not the solution to my problems, but I can't stop. I just want the memories to go away.

 

[creepybstrd]

It's insane that you've lived to this age

 

[endoftheskies]

I've started to binge eat like crazy and drink alcohol in order to cope with my stressful life as a 43 year old incel. I'm starting to gain weight again. My stomach looks like a damn beer belly now. I feel so fat and ugly. I'm just coping with the situation of getting beaten and humiliated, and recently also being fired from the job that I had for years. I drink a beer after another beer. I drink mostly just Budweiser. Sometimes vodka, but I tend to get really drunk on the vodka so I avoid it. I'm averaging around 4000+ calories a day easy now between binging and drinking beer at night to fall asleep because sleeping pills don’t work anymore since they gave me bad dreams. I know it's not the solution to my problems, but I can't stop. I just want the memories to go away.

Absolutely fucking brootal. I don't know what else to say.

 

[drowningindenial]

It's insane that you've lived to this age

 

[Pancakecel]

What happened to you was fucked up, it makes sense you're eating and drinking the pain away. Im sure you have some form of ptsd, which obviously makes sense given what happened.

Im not sure what you can do, other than find the strength to try and cope in a more healthy way, and not self destruct, but that's much easier said than done of course.

 

[Hector]

What happened to you was fucked up, it makes sense you're eating and drinking the pain away. Im sure you have some form of ptsd, which obviously makes sense given what happened.

Im not sure what you can do, other than find the strength to try and cope in a more healthy way, and not self destruct, but that's much easier said than done of course.

I try to cope in healthy ways, I really do. But it's not working out well. Every time I sleep, I have nightmares. Even when I don't sleep I have flashbacks. I don't know what to do anymore. I want help but I'm scared. I feel so weak and tired of it all.

 

[Hector]

It's insane that you've lived to this age

Yeah, it's crazy. I'm supposed to be a happy adult with a career, wife and kids, maybe even grandkids. Instead, I'm sitting here talking to strangers on the Internet about my problems and ranting about getting picked on by high school students. The world is so unfair and all because of things like my height, which I can’t change.

 

[creepybstrd]

Yeah, it's crazy. I'm supposed to be a happy adult with a career, wife and kids, maybe even grandkids. Instead, I'm sitting here talking to strangers on the Internet about my problems and ranting about getting picked on by high school students. The world is so unfair and all because of things like my height, which I can’t change.

Do you like your face but your height is the only thing you are not happy with?

 

[Hector]

Do you like your face but your height is the only thing you are not happy with?

In a way, yes. I actually don't mind my face. When I look in the mirror, I don't hate what I see. When I was skinny I was average at best, maybe slightly above average when I was younger.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Absolutely fucking brootal. I don't know what else to say.

 

[AegisReflector]

First thing you should do it stop thinking about what happened. How do you do that? you get something else to occupy your head, something that doesn't destroy you and that you enjoy.

Start working out with your own body weight. Today, not tomorrow. A bad fitness condition results in a bad mental condition, a terrible loop to be in.

 

[VanGobbel]

Start nightwalking bro

 

[Calamari Sun]

Hit the weights fatass

 

[Hector]

Hit the weights fatass

I am fat, but what does "hit the weights" mean?

 

[undesiredsamsung]

I am fat, but what does "hit the weights" mean?

ir a un gimnasio bro

 

[Hector]

ir a un gimnasio bro

Sí, he ido y sigo yendo. Pero eso no ha cambiado las cosas. Soy bajito y eso simplemente no se puede arreglar con ejercicio. Y mi cara es fea. No hay nada que hacer al respecto.

 

[Lilwonkycliffy53]

I've started to binge eat like crazy and drink alcohol in order to cope with my stressful life as a 43 year old incel. I'm starting to gain weight again. My stomach looks like a damn beer belly now. I feel so fat and ugly. I'm just coping with the situation of getting beaten and humiliated, and recently also being fired from the job that I had for years. I drink a beer after another beer. I drink mostly just Budweiser. Sometimes vodka, but I tend to get really drunk on the vodka so I avoid it. I'm averaging around 4000+ calories a day easy now between binging and drinking beer at night to fall asleep because sleeping pills don’t work anymore since they gave me bad dreams. I know it's not the solution to my problems, but I can't stop. I just want the memories to go away.

sori

 

[Poopless One]

Relatable

 

[ThePornographer]

It's the start of the end.

I do not want to make you feel bad but an Intel with no job who get drunk everyday and eat slop all day to cope look like homelessness is around the corner.

Be careful buddy, it happen quicker than you think.

 

[GrokGhoul]

I've been binge eating and watching a stupid amount of porn to cope to the point that I am officially numb to most of my feelings. That and the fact I'm on medication makes me feel like a mannequin. I feel your pain dude

 

[Itsoverm8]

Im tired of alcohol maxxing doesn't even do it for me anymore like it used to. I wish I could get ahold of some stronger drugs like percocets or something.

 

[itstoolate]

I've been binge eating and porn bingeing for 20 years. It's over.