Eternatus
I shall surrender to the darkness beneath me
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I think women find more difficult pretending affection than just giving their body for sex. I don’t want that, I’m a Incel but I don’t give a shit about forcing coitus with a girl that didn’t choose me as a partner, I don’t wanna be a depraved man, even tho inherently I am, I’ll rather die a virgin who cares. But the “being held in someones arms” is different I think it is really screwing with my heart I cannot go a single night without it pounding from my chest, I wake up 2/3 times at least.
Wouldn’t be authentic too but I really need it. I’m having episodes Im terrified of my thoughts, I’m constantly making abstractions forming meanings patterns correlations, looking for answers in agenticity, detrimental garbage that’s being flushed in my cortex and I fear that I’m losing this war with myself for real I don’t know what to do anymore.
Wouldn’t be authentic too but I really need it. I’m having episodes Im terrified of my thoughts, I’m constantly making abstractions forming meanings patterns correlations, looking for answers in agenticity, detrimental garbage that’s being flushed in my cortex and I fear that I’m losing this war with myself for real I don’t know what to do anymore.





