I'm having a mini anxiety attack, so I might be writing very wrong, but I don't care i just need to vent to someone even if nobody cares
I stopped using .is for some time to try normiemaxxing, i guess i don't even need to say that this shit simply doesn't work when you face is completely destroyed by acne scars and your hair is fucking shit and half of the guys on your "friend group" are chadlites or completely retarded sexhavers.
I joined a "friend group" last year with some guys and girls and i thought that maybe there was hope for me but i started to notice that i was basically being a mascot to them, they made me pay things for them and i did in hope i would actually have true connection for the first time of my life and they started treating me like shit once i started to refuse to do what they wanted.
So i had a oneitis, i thought that this shit would never happen to me but it did, for me she was the best girl in the entire world, i tried to talk to her but everytime she looked with disgust when i was close and once even laughed when i was walking past them, so, there was a guy on my "friend group" and i told him that i was thinking about declaring my feelings for that one girl, i don't know what was going on with me, the next week i discover THAT THEY ARE DATING AND THAT FUCKER WAS EVEN WEARING A RING ALREADY. I could see them trying to not laugh while he told me about his girlfriend and how they already kissed and had sex, they were talking this shit in a ice cream parlor and nobody gave a fuck, i didn't react and just tried to stay with them for more time until when i left to go to the toilet and when i left they werent there.
I always had anxiety since i was a kid and insane depression, I've already tried going to three psychologists and none of them worked and to make things worse they were all foids so of course they tried to say everything would get better but everyday i just get worse, i'm feeling like my heart is going to explode at any moment, my psychiatrist gave me a lot of meds and they didn't work and to be honest they made me worse, i can't leave my house anymore and i'm feeling too weak to even clean my house, i'm lucky that i live with my mom and my dad, my dad even bought me a new phone and i got happy but when my mom saw the phone she started talking about some divorce shit and now my dad is going to get fired from his job.
I tried to kill myself two times already and when i told my mom that she treated it like a joke and didn't care.
I came back to .is because here is the only place i could vent without some fuckass normie trying to tell some whitepill shit to me and i'm going absolute insane already, some days ago i woke up hearing voices and i was feeling like i was hit by a truck before i passed out and i'm thinking about trying to kill myself again.
I'm sorry if it is hard to understand what i wrote i'm just really not well right now
I stopped using .is for some time to try normiemaxxing, i guess i don't even need to say that this shit simply doesn't work when you face is completely destroyed by acne scars and your hair is fucking shit and half of the guys on your "friend group" are chadlites or completely retarded sexhavers.
I joined a "friend group" last year with some guys and girls and i thought that maybe there was hope for me but i started to notice that i was basically being a mascot to them, they made me pay things for them and i did in hope i would actually have true connection for the first time of my life and they started treating me like shit once i started to refuse to do what they wanted.
So i had a oneitis, i thought that this shit would never happen to me but it did, for me she was the best girl in the entire world, i tried to talk to her but everytime she looked with disgust when i was close and once even laughed when i was walking past them, so, there was a guy on my "friend group" and i told him that i was thinking about declaring my feelings for that one girl, i don't know what was going on with me, the next week i discover THAT THEY ARE DATING AND THAT FUCKER WAS EVEN WEARING A RING ALREADY. I could see them trying to not laugh while he told me about his girlfriend and how they already kissed and had sex, they were talking this shit in a ice cream parlor and nobody gave a fuck, i didn't react and just tried to stay with them for more time until when i left to go to the toilet and when i left they werent there.
I always had anxiety since i was a kid and insane depression, I've already tried going to three psychologists and none of them worked and to make things worse they were all foids so of course they tried to say everything would get better but everyday i just get worse, i'm feeling like my heart is going to explode at any moment, my psychiatrist gave me a lot of meds and they didn't work and to be honest they made me worse, i can't leave my house anymore and i'm feeling too weak to even clean my house, i'm lucky that i live with my mom and my dad, my dad even bought me a new phone and i got happy but when my mom saw the phone she started talking about some divorce shit and now my dad is going to get fired from his job.
I tried to kill myself two times already and when i told my mom that she treated it like a joke and didn't care.
I came back to .is because here is the only place i could vent without some fuckass normie trying to tell some whitepill shit to me and i'm going absolute insane already, some days ago i woke up hearing voices and i was feeling like i was hit by a truck before i passed out and i'm thinking about trying to kill myself again.
I'm sorry if it is hard to understand what i wrote i'm just really not well right now
