Blackpill I'm ashamed of my delusions despite being blackpilled.

[Curious0]

I take photos of myself and realize I'm ugly.
I look at the mirror and realize I am bad looking.
Yet, I seem to forget about this fact. I am in a stage of delusion. And this is why I'm happy.
Today I took another photo of myself. And I legit feel like writing a suicide letter or something because I don't want to live looking like this.
My current cope is that I will someday make enough money to afford plastic surgery which is unrealistic though since I'll have a low status job.

Despite basically realizing I'm a subhuman every day, it only takes one smile or word of my oneitis to get me into a completely ridiculous state of delusion. I begin to start having hopes. After that I begin taking everything she does as an IOI. And after that I legit start believing she likes me.
I'm very very ashamed of that. I look at myself and want to punch the shit out of me, rip off my acne skin and break my subhuman midface with my shitty jaw. I legit get rope feelings when taking photos. It makes me realize I'm so ugly. I don't look that bad when looking at window reflections etc.

How can someone who has been on an incel forum for so long be so delusional?
I always tell myself it's over for me but deep down I still have hopes.

I'm ashamed I'm such a dumb idiot but it' s nature. My mind controls me and makes me being delusional.

It takes one smile of her and all my feelings for her are evoked again.
It's the definition of a cuck.
I hate cucks yet I'm a fucking cuck myself.
This is ridiculous.
What else is the solution to this problem?
I feel trapped.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

It's the same for all of us. A girl said hi to me a few times and I still think of her months later. And I know she doesn't like me, I understand it and I keep repeating it to myself, but she pops into my head regardless. It's biology, it's nature trying to push us to procreate.

 

[Michael15651]

There’s always Retinol and Benzoyl peroxide.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

I legit get rope feelings when taking photos. It makes me realize I'm so ugly.

I do too bro, it makes me feel so bad about myself.

What else is the solution to this problem?

Potentially 2D, but I think it depends on the type of person that you are. I can redirect my emotions onto a 2D girl, I feel good when watching them smile, and I've replace the longing for a real foid with an anime one instead. Of course this only really soothes loneliness slightly, but it's better than nothing.

 

[KingOfRome]

It's your subconscious desire to stave off the everlasting pain of subhumanity. Let it happen, but never forget what it really is.

 

[Curious0]

It's the same for all of us. A girl said hi to me a few times and I still think of her months later. And I know she doesn't like me, I understand it and I keep repeating it to myself, but she pops into my head regardless. It's biology, it's nature trying to push us to procreate.

Brutal. Absolutely brutal wow. I only have 3 more months of school until we're all done. I'll never see her again after that and I hoped I'd forget about her after that. But I guess not.

There’s always Retinol and Benzoyl peroxide.

For acne? I've been taking isotretinoin for 10 months. I obviously will need a laser treatment for scars. Acne is also not the only problem obviously. It would be great if i. I was.
Biggest problems are a long narrow head, nct, small palate, huge bumpy nose, thin neck, narrow shoulders, wide hips, close set small eyes, horrible under eye area and cheekbones and extreme asymmetry in jaw

 

[Sgtpinkie]

It's the same for all of us. A girl said hi to me a few times and I still think of her months later. And I know she doesn't like me, I understand it and I keep repeating it to myself, but she pops into my head regardless. It's biology, it's nature trying to push us to procreate.

It's your subconscious desire to stave off the everlasting pain of subhumanity. Let it happen, but never forget what it really is.

It's all natrual op, I get these to. A girl asks if I'm okay out of pity and concern (I always look misrable when out of the house) and I imagine having kids and finally being happy. We're cucks but we don't want to be cucks

 

[Ocelot]

Don't be too hard on yourself. It's human nature. We all do it .

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I do too bro, it makes me feel so bad about myself.

Potentially 2D, but I think it depends on the type of person that you are. I can redirect my emotions onto a 2D girl, I feel good when watching them smile, and I've replace the longing for a real foid with an anime one instead. Of course this only really soothes loneliness slightly, but it's better than nothing.

Can't get into 2D, I overanalyze stuff and I just keep thinking of the greasy nerds that drew that thing, or about the governments of the world and how they push these things as population control.

 

[non_factor]

True,you could be blackpilled for years and all it takes is a few kind words from a female to pull you out temporarily.

 

[Curious0]

It's all natrual op, I get these to. A girl asks if I'm okay out of pity and concern (I always look misrable when out of the house) and I imagine having kids and finally being happy. We're cucks but we don't want to be cucks

I really wish they didn't do it out of pity. It'd be better if they just ignored us completely.
I hadn't seen her for a few weeks and my feelings for her diminished.
Today I saw her again and she said hey and initiated a conversation and it all came back. It makes me feel miserable when I always think about her.
Not only am I too ugly for any female, but she's also really beautiful, completely out of my league. It's ridiculous to be this delusional.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

Can't get into 2D, I overanalyze stuff and I just keep thinking of the greasy nerds that drew that thing, or about the governments of the world and how they push these things as population control.

Yeah I see what you mean. I guess I look at it this way, if 2D helps me cope, I don't really care about the motives behind it.

 

[Yuhuhu]

I do too bro, it makes me feel so bad about myself.

Potentially 2D, but I think it depends on the type of person that you are. I can redirect my emotions onto a 2D girl, I feel good when watching them smile, and I've replace the longing for a real foid with an anime one instead. Of course this only really soothes loneliness slightly, but it's better than nothing.

I wish I could be like you. It would've been an impregnable cope if only I had the...brain for it.

Once I read/watch anything 2D, my brain over-analyzes everything in it like it's real life. I mean, as an example, it's very hard for me to trust people, especially women in real life and that same belief and behavior applies to Anime as well.


Sigh

 

[Sgtpinkie]

I really wish they didn't do it out of pity. It'd be better if they just ignored us completely.
I hadn't seen her for a few weeks and my feelings for her diminished.
Today I saw her again and she said hey and initiated a conversation and it all came back. It makes me feel miserable when I always think about her.
Not only am I too ugly for any female, but she's also really beautiful, completely out of my league. It's ridiculous to be this delusional.

Literally the same, allow me to tell you a story-

I remember being in my junior year of highschool (obviously before I discovered the blackpill/incels.is) there was this amazing aryan foid, blonde and blue eyes, that alone is already impossible to attain as a white latino Mediterranean looking ethnic, but i was naive and tried to see if I can make something out of this. I had her for french class, since I go to a VERY ethnic school 60% hispanic, 30% black, 10% white. I was the whitest looking boy there so she sat next to me. Already I started shitting my pants, I thought "Holy shit how did a subhuman like me manage to get a foid to sit next to me that shit never happens" so she starts leeching off my work asking for answers and help to pass the class of course a weak minded ethnic like myself catered and helped her as much as he possibly could. So it went further from there I started to go to the same places as her, I would go to the art room (they allowed people to eat in there during lunch, looking back that place was filled with entitled cucks and fags) I even helped her carry stuff to french, (like carrying her drawing and bag) and I really thought this could be something, she seemed pleased to have me around and even laughed at the retarded autistic shit I would do in class. So I figured maybe it was time to try and flirt with her. So I approached her when we left french holding the door open saying "I have to be a gentleman and help you" stuttering like the fucking autist I am. She immediately responded saying, "you know I have a boyfriend right?" So I immediately backpeddled and said "Yeah, I know I just wanted to be nice!" So I was a little bothered but whatever I moved on from that. She later started spreading rumors that I was taking pictures of her, that I was stalking her and breathing down her neck and that I attempted to rape her. I got called into the office and was ordered to explain myself (the cops in there to make sure I don't run) I started explaining that everything she said was false and it was just to make me look bad. The principal was not convinced and called in my school thearpist/the school psychologist. They immediately started using the muh autisim explanation for my behavior. The school decided to transfer me to a alternative school setting for the handicapped for a month. After I came back she avoided me and the little friends I did have in my small social circle left me to see thier normie friends and gfs. This is when I discovered incels and started to identify with the group and slowly I would start to become blackpilled and understand that the reason I couldn't get any gfs was because I was an actual subhuman. It hurts because even today I imagine myself being with her despite everything that happend, holy shit I might actually be a cuck

 

[Braincel14w]

Liking a girl that gives you attention doesn't make you a cuck it's totally normal especially if you're a bit desperate like we all are here. Don't be so hard on yourself. You can end your delusion (if it is a delusion) by thinking it through. I'm telling you if she likes you she will drop an unmistakeable hint, that's what foids do. If you're not sure if she likes you then she almost certainly doesn't. You will see her pining for other guys, flirting with them. If you want to be with her you will have to physiaclly fight off the men she interacts with. That's what oneitis is for, to give you motivation to be super protective of a foid so that you own her.

 

[Cuyen]

Literally the same, allow me to tell you a story-

I remember being in my junior year of highschool (obviously before I discovered the blackpill/incels.is) there was this amazing aryan foid, blonde and blue eyes, that alone is already impossible to attain as a white latino Mediterranean looking ethnic, but i was naive and tried to see if I can make something out of this. I had her for french class, since I go to a VERY ethnic school 60% hispanic, 30% black, 10% white. I was the whitest looking boy there so she sat next to me. Already I started shitting my pants, I thought "Holy shit how did a subhuman like me manage to get a foid to sit next to me that shit never happens" so she starts leeching off my work asking for answers and help to pass the class of course a weak minded ethnic like myself catered and helped her as much as he possibly could. So it went further from there I started to go to the same places as her, I would go to the art room (they allowed people to eat in there during lunch, looking back that place was filled with entitled cucks and fags) I even helped her carry stuff to french, (like carrying her drawing and bag) and I really thought this could be something, she seemed pleased to have me around and even laughed at the retarded autistic shit I would do in class. So I figured maybe it was time to try and flirt with her. So I approached her when we left french holding the door open saying "I have to be a gentleman and help you" stuttering like the fucking autist I am. She immediately responded saying, "you know I have a boyfriend right?" So I immediately backpeddled and said "Yeah, I know I just wanted to be nice!" So I was a little bothered but whatever I moved on from that. She later started spreading rumors that I was taking pictures of her, that I was stalking her and breathing down her neck and that I attempted to rape her. I got called into the office and was ordered to explain myself (the cops in there to make sure I don't run) I started explaining that everything she said was false and it was just to make me look bad. The principal was not convinced and called in my school thearpist/the school psychologist. They immediately started using the muh autisim explanation for my behavior. The school decided to transfer me to a alternative school setting for the handicapped for a month. After I came back she avoided me and the little friends I did have in my small social circle left me to see thier normie friends and gfs. This is when I discovered incels and started to identify with the group and slowly I would start to become blackpilled and understand that the reason I couldn't get any gfs was because I was an actual subhuman. It hurts because even today I imagine myself being with her despite everything that happend, holy shit I might actually be a cuck

holy shit bro make a thread tbh

 

[IncelGenocide]

Suicide is always an answer.

 

[Curious0]

Literally the same, allow me to tell you a story-

I remember being in my junior year of highschool (obviously before I discovered the blackpill/incels.is) there was this amazing aryan foid, blonde and blue eyes, that alone is already impossible to attain as a white latino Mediterranean looking ethnic, but i was naive and tried to see if I can make something out of this. I had her for french class, since I go to a VERY ethnic school 60% hispanic, 30% black, 10% white. I was the whitest looking boy there so she sat next to me. Already I started shitting my pants, I thought "Holy shit how did a subhuman like me manage to get a foid to sit next to me that shit never happens" so she starts leeching off my work asking for answers and help to pass the class of course a weak minded ethnic like myself catered and helped her as much as he possibly could. So it went further from there I started to go to the same places as her, I would go to the art room (they allowed people to eat in there during lunch, looking back that place was filled with entitled cucks and fags) I even helped her carry stuff to french, (like carrying her drawing and bag) and I really thought this could be something, she seemed pleased to have me around and even laughed at the retarded autistic shit I would do in class. So I figured maybe it was time to try and flirt with her. So I approached her when we left french holding the door open saying "I have to be a gentleman and help you" stuttering like the fucking autist I am. She immediately responded saying, "you know I have a boyfriend right?" So I immediately backpeddled and said "Yeah, I know I just wanted to be nice!" So I was a little bothered but whatever I moved on from that. She later started spreading rumors that I was taking pictures of her, that I was stalking her and breathing down her neck and that I attempted to rape her. I got called into the office and was ordered to explain myself (the cops in there to make sure I don't run) I started explaining that everything she said was false and it was just to make me look bad. The principal was not convinced and called in my school thearpist/the school psychologist. They immediately started using the muh autisim explanation for my behavior. The school decided to transfer me to a alternative school setting for the handicapped for a month. After I came back she avoided me and the little friends I did have in my small social circle left me to see thier normie friends and gfs. This is when I discovered incels and started to identify with the group and slowly I would start to become blackpilled and understand that the reason I couldn't get any gfs was because I was an actual subhuman. It hurts because even today I imagine myself being with her despite everything that happend, holy shit I might actually be a cuck

Damn that's brutal.
I have never approached her so this hopefully won't happen to me.
My oneitis is a beautiful Muslim Arab while I'm a skinny white atheist, so I literally don't stand a chance apart from my looks even.

I will have to do a low inhib move though otherwise I will later regret being an absolute pussy I guess.
She also smiles etc. but I noticed her doing this even more with good looking guys.
She's probably even gossip talking.
Nature really cucks us

 

[Sgtpinkie]

Damn that's brutal.
I have never approached her so this hopefully won't happen to me.
My oneitis is a beautiful Muslim Arab while I'm a skinny white atheist, so I literally don't stand a chance apart from my looks even.

I will have to do a low inhib move though otherwise I will later regret being an absolute pussy I guess.
She also smiles etc. but I noticed her doing this even more with good looking guys.
She's probably even gossip talking.
Nature really cucks us

You and I are very similar, good luck friend. I hope you ascend and do way better then me. Just watch yourself and remember that foids will try to harm you if they see you as the victim. Stay safe friend.

 

[Cuyen]

Suicide is always an answer.

rope is waiting for us all

 

[GameDevCel]

same thing here, i'm ugly, i cope one day i will have money despise being a lazy idiot that don't do shit allday, and one smile from my onitis is enough to fuel my delusion of being happy for months, meanwhile they rid chad cock, i just hate this existence, i just wanted to be happy.