My genetics have held me back in everything I've ever wanted to do in life. The two biggest problems are my physical and mental limitations. I was born with a pars defect, essentially a permanent fracture in my back that prevents me from doing activities which are physically arduous. My dream job was to be an army infantryman, but I can't do that as it would make the fracture worse, forcing me to get back surgery at an incredibly young age. My surgeon says not even surgery would help all that much and I'd likely need multiple.
In theory, you'd think someone who has physical issues would be better off having some kind of white collar job that isn't too physical. Only problem is I'm low iq and autistic. I'm terrible in school and get "information overload" extremely easily. The teacher during a lecture will say "Take notes" and I end up taking all the wrong notes and flunk the test. The teacher will tell me to read a dozen pages in a textbook and highlight important stuff, only for me to highlight the whole page. The teacher will want me to memorize thousands of words, only for me to study for hours and forget everything. I'm awful in classroom environments and even worse in online school. Information simply does not process in my head the same way it does for a normie.
My Dad had me in his late 50's while my Mom had me in her late 30's. Combine old sperm with an aging egg and you'll develop a fucked up kid both mentally and physically. At age the age of 21, I'm now back to how I was when I used to be 12 years old. All I do now is play video games all day, collect action figures, build legos, and jerk off. I wish I wasn't like this but I don't have a choice. Luckily my parents buy me fun copes but it's not something I can do forever.
In theory, you'd think someone who has physical issues would be better off having some kind of white collar job that isn't too physical. Only problem is I'm low iq and autistic. I'm terrible in school and get "information overload" extremely easily. The teacher during a lecture will say "Take notes" and I end up taking all the wrong notes and flunk the test. The teacher will tell me to read a dozen pages in a textbook and highlight important stuff, only for me to highlight the whole page. The teacher will want me to memorize thousands of words, only for me to study for hours and forget everything. I'm awful in classroom environments and even worse in online school. Information simply does not process in my head the same way it does for a normie.
My Dad had me in his late 50's while my Mom had me in her late 30's. Combine old sperm with an aging egg and you'll develop a fucked up kid both mentally and physically. At age the age of 21, I'm now back to how I was when I used to be 12 years old. All I do now is play video games all day, collect action figures, build legos, and jerk off. I wish I wasn't like this but I don't have a choice. Luckily my parents buy me fun copes but it's not something I can do forever.
