My life has always gone in two-day cycles.
I arrive at school/job and feel ok, but that changes because everyone treats me with contempt or I fuck something up.
Next day, I feel down, scared and insecure, but one person is kinda nice to me (a man or woman in rare instances) and I get better, my confidence is restored.
Rinse and repeat. Low are getting lower, but highs aren't getting higher.
For quite some time, however, my days are combination of fucking up on my part or contempt on others and feeling constantly scared, flinching and distrustful.
I may not be lying about wanting to rope on 22nd May. If my situation spirals like this, I'm outta this shitty hellhole inhabited by arrogant shitheads.
I arrive at school/job and feel ok, but that changes because everyone treats me with contempt or I fuck something up.
Next day, I feel down, scared and insecure, but one person is kinda nice to me (a man or woman in rare instances) and I get better, my confidence is restored.
Rinse and repeat. Low are getting lower, but highs aren't getting higher.
For quite some time, however, my days are combination of fucking up on my part or contempt on others and feeling constantly scared, flinching and distrustful.
I may not be lying about wanting to rope on 22nd May. If my situation spirals like this, I'm outta this shitty hellhole inhabited by arrogant shitheads.
