BlackPillDealer2
3/10 oldcel mentalcel
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I am now an incel due to aging, balding and mental problems, but back when I was young I was a low tier normie. This was before the internet became popular and smartphones were a thing. I had many opportunities to get a girlfriend, but I failed every one of them. This makes me worse than an incel, because at least you guys can rightfully blame your genetics, I have no such excuse.
My story begins in middle school which was when I was bullied pretty badly. During this time I had a crush on a pretty girl. One day I get a note passed to me in which this girl said she liked me. But it turns out it was only a joke, and she conspired with my main bully to bully me. The bully gave her money to send that note. I was humiliated and crushed. This absolutely destroyed my self-esteem and trust in females, especially young girls. This will be relevant later.
Fast forward to high school, I became friends with a Chad who enjoyed PC gaming and a Brazilian Chad. My main bully also moved away. This lead to my social value going up to the point where I wasn't ruthlessly bullied anymore. I was still teased and was low on the social hierarchy, but not on the bottom anymore.
I started to get some attention from high school females but I was still emotionally scarred by that one girl in middle school so I didn't trust that this interest was genuine. In my own eyes I was still that bullied loser kid. I was paranoid that they were just joking or something like that and scared of being hurt again. Also my social skills were crap as I had never interacted with females. So even though they were interested in me I had no idea what to do with that interest. Here is where having game would come in handy. Pickup stuff is only useful if you are even moderately attractive, before smartphones were a thing, now it's useless as the looks barrier is so high.
Basically I had a handful of females interested in me in high school and college, but I was too traumatized and socially awkward to do anything with that interest. Back then average looks was enough to get you in the door, but you also needed social skills to do anything with what your looks give you.
I dropped out of college and have been at home alone rotting for years. I did escortcel for a few years, but stopped doing that, it's not worth it but I still fap to those memories as the escorts were pretty girls.
My life here on earth is basically over. I'm an example of what not to do in life. I had every opportunity and still failed.
TL;DR Bullying destroyed my self-esteem and trust in young girls. Bully moved away and got Chad friends. Social value went up, girls began to be interested but I didn't trust them and my social skills were crap. Never got a real girlfriend in high school or college. Dropped out and have been on and off rotting ever since. I'm a failed normie who had opportunities but failed.
EDIT; FULL DISCLOSURE: I did have sex with one girl in 2009. So I guess I succeeded with her.
My story begins in middle school which was when I was bullied pretty badly. During this time I had a crush on a pretty girl. One day I get a note passed to me in which this girl said she liked me. But it turns out it was only a joke, and she conspired with my main bully to bully me. The bully gave her money to send that note. I was humiliated and crushed. This absolutely destroyed my self-esteem and trust in females, especially young girls. This will be relevant later.
Fast forward to high school, I became friends with a Chad who enjoyed PC gaming and a Brazilian Chad. My main bully also moved away. This lead to my social value going up to the point where I wasn't ruthlessly bullied anymore. I was still teased and was low on the social hierarchy, but not on the bottom anymore.
I started to get some attention from high school females but I was still emotionally scarred by that one girl in middle school so I didn't trust that this interest was genuine. In my own eyes I was still that bullied loser kid. I was paranoid that they were just joking or something like that and scared of being hurt again. Also my social skills were crap as I had never interacted with females. So even though they were interested in me I had no idea what to do with that interest. Here is where having game would come in handy. Pickup stuff is only useful if you are even moderately attractive, before smartphones were a thing, now it's useless as the looks barrier is so high.
Basically I had a handful of females interested in me in high school and college, but I was too traumatized and socially awkward to do anything with that interest. Back then average looks was enough to get you in the door, but you also needed social skills to do anything with what your looks give you.
I dropped out of college and have been at home alone rotting for years. I did escortcel for a few years, but stopped doing that, it's not worth it but I still fap to those memories as the escorts were pretty girls.
My life here on earth is basically over. I'm an example of what not to do in life. I had every opportunity and still failed.
TL;DR Bullying destroyed my self-esteem and trust in young girls. Bully moved away and got Chad friends. Social value went up, girls began to be interested but I didn't trust them and my social skills were crap. Never got a real girlfriend in high school or college. Dropped out and have been on and off rotting ever since. I'm a failed normie who had opportunities but failed.
EDIT; FULL DISCLOSURE: I did have sex with one girl in 2009. So I guess I succeeded with her.
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