Old Ironsides
✝️Catholic subhuman nigger who yearn 4 asians
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I would, mango, I would...
Even with the physical pain.
Despite suffering so much everyday pain not only bodily/physical from my medical problems, but emotionally, financially, career-wise, relationship-wise, satisfaction with the world, money, and etc, I still suffer even more somehow.
Dying would only bring my copes to me!
For example, I am doomed to fail a physical fitness test to keep a scholarship for my secondary studies, and there is nothing I can do about it! That HURTS! Despite being SO CLOSE to the finish.
If I could die, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, I would be at so much serenity.
But God, said the Heavens are so great for eternity for us, so that's why I assume why he puts us through a lifetime of suffering, chico..
Because even if I wanted to do something benign but gruesome by paying my life to give extra for the price of sin, it's in vain. It is because I left a life of sin, and the act of doing it myself is sinful in his eyes.
I'm stuck. God, help me. I don't wish to suffer the consequences on Friday.
I don't fear, but I nerve.
Even with the physical pain.
Despite suffering so much everyday pain not only bodily/physical from my medical problems, but emotionally, financially, career-wise, relationship-wise, satisfaction with the world, money, and etc, I still suffer even more somehow.
Dying would only bring my copes to me!
For example, I am doomed to fail a physical fitness test to keep a scholarship for my secondary studies, and there is nothing I can do about it! That HURTS! Despite being SO CLOSE to the finish.
If I could die, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, I would be at so much serenity.
But God, said the Heavens are so great for eternity for us, so that's why I assume why he puts us through a lifetime of suffering, chico..
Because even if I wanted to do something benign but gruesome by paying my life to give extra for the price of sin, it's in vain. It is because I left a life of sin, and the act of doing it myself is sinful in his eyes.
I'm stuck. God, help me. I don't wish to suffer the consequences on Friday.
I don't fear, but I nerve.





