Venting Idk how to feel about my life?

[JoeyBoy02]

So i’m 20 years old and my life is just… nothing. Quit my education/job back in December 2021 and just been basically hiding at home since.
I’ve thought allot about life as i’ve just been waiting to eventually rope.

I wasted most of my life as i was always weird, mostly friendless and sat inside most of the time. I barely ever had any friends and didn’t really grow up normally because i mostly isolated myself without realising it.

I was always childish and immature, didn’t really think about life or my future, mostly preferred being alone, did bad in school and didn’t experience much. While others my age socialised, had friends, hanged out, went to parties, malls, beaches/lakes and so on… i sat in my room… I live in a small city and barely know about any of the different stores, restaurants and places here…

Now… I don’t have any friends, have lost contact with all former classmates, barely got a relationship with my family members, have experienced probably less than 10% of what others have… and i feel like I’m a sociopath… Like i feel completely unable to feel affection, sympathy or empathy and it feels like it’s always been this way…

I also don’t desire to grow older… even if looks and physical issues were out of the picture… i don’t want to become 30+ years old, have a wife and kids… or any of the normal stuff all other people do…

Can anyone relate to any of this? I know allot of incels are lonely and so on… but it seems that most are far more normal than me… and want to go trough life… even with their problems…

This post got too long and i doubt anyone will reply… guess ill see… hopefully the paragraphing makes it more palatable…

 

[Med Amine]

so you want to say you're a mentalcel?

 

[PLA1092]

How do you afford to sustain yourself without a job? Mogs me for having people willing to pay for you, tbh, if that's the case. You're still relatively young, though, you have the option and time to moneymaxx/degreemaxx as far as you can to get better copes and at least not have the rest of your life dominated by LDARing. Seems like the best possible scenario for you if you're truly incel.

 

[Doomer Guy]

So i’m 20 years old and my life is just… nothing. Quit my education/job back in December 2021 and just been basically hiding at home since.
I’ve thought allot about life as i’ve just been waiting to eventually rope.

I wasted most of my life as i was always weird, mostly friendless and sat inside most of the time. I barely ever had any friends and didn’t really grow up normally because i mostly isolated myself without realising it.

I was always childish and immature, didn’t really think about life or my future, mostly preferred being alone, did bad in school and didn’t experience much. While others my age socialised, had friends, hanged out, went to parties, malls, beaches/lakes and so on… i sat in my room… I live in a small city and barely know about any of the different stores, restaurants and places here…

Now… I don’t have any friends, have lost contact with all former classmates, barely got a relationship with my family members, have experienced probably less than 10% of what others have… and i feel like I’m a sociopath… Like i feel completely unable to feel affection, sympathy or empathy and it feels like it’s always been this way…

I also don’t desire to grow older… even if looks and physical issues were out of the picture… i don’t want to become 30+ years old, have a wife and kids… or any of the normal stuff all other people do…

Can anyone relate to any of this? I know allot of incels are lonely and so on… but it seems that most are far more normal than me… and want to go trough life… even with their problems…

This post got too long and i doubt anyone will reply… guess ill see… hopefully the paragraphing makes it more palatable…

I relate to this, I'm 19, friendless and isolated due to trauma and retarded parents that ruined my childhood.
I feel sorry for you, this is what happens to too many young men like us due to how cruel and unfair the world is...

 

[JoeyBoy02]

I relate to this, I'm 19, friendless and isolated due to trauma and retarded parents that ruined my childhood.
I feel sorry for you, this is what happens to too many young men like us due to how cruel and unfair the world is...

To me the worst thing is that it feels like allot of this, if not almost all of it, is my own fault… Like trough my whole life, i only ever made mistakes, messed up and so on… The last couple of years i made everything so much worse… unnecessarily

Some things aren’t my fault of course, like my height for starters

 

[Doomer Guy]

To me the worst thing is that it feels like allot of this, if not almost all of it, is my own fault… Like trough my whole life, i only ever made mistakes, messed up and so on… The last couple of years i made everything so much worse… unnecessarily

Some things aren’t my fault of course, like my height for starters

I know, I sometimes feel like it's all my fault too, after all I've been blamed unfairly for so many things to the point where I developed a guilt complex. I guess you just have to remind yourself that it's not all your fault and that all this guilt is irrational until it fades away.

 

[JoeyBoy02]

so you want to say you're a mentalcel?

No, i’m like 5,3-5,5 ft tall and got other issues with my appearance

 

[JoeyBoy02]

How do you afford to sustain yourself without a job? Mogs me for having people willing to pay for you, tbh, if that's the case. You're still relatively young, though, you have the option and time to moneymaxx/degreemaxx as far as you can to get better copes and at least not have the rest of your life dominated by LDARing. Seems like the best possible scenario for you if you're truly incel.

I’ve lived off welfare or whatever… in my opinion it sucks tho because i’ve just felt useless and lazy… living off money i don’t really deserve to get…

Well i messed up my education and i got serious issues with my skin and teeth now… i can’t handle going outside… like i wouldn’t even be able to make eye contact with anyone because of how bad my skin is… i could go the dentist and probably manage with my teeth, but i also couldn’t bare facing them with how bad it is too…

 

[spasticbuddy]

It’s ok boyo we all go through this

 

[BornToLose]

I’ve lived off welfare or whatever… in my opinion it sucks tho because i’ve just felt useless and lazy… living off money i don’t really deserve to get…

Every incel deserves welfare.