to actually have that “teenage experience”
the highschool experience
the memories
the flirting
the friend groups
the drama
the parties
i never had any of it because i never even met the base threshold for it
not even the base threshold for a friend or a friend group
i never had female friends either
never met that threshold too
just being curry is already a big failo to most people
not just that but how incredibly short i am
not like my environment was the best too
it wasn’t the big “american highschool”
no diversity, no social structure, nothing, really small school where the funding is short
doesn’t even have its own sports team
i spent majority of my youth in the online world
especially that stupid purple app
roblox too where i felt some sort of ‘belonging’ for some of those factions people made
anything that didn’t involve my face or my reality
i poured so much of myself into online shit because my subconscious refused to admit the truth
i never got to have something normal
never even got close
i was coping through pixels on a screen because real life never gave me a chance
funny thing is
none of it mattered
you tell your online friends you’re curry
and suddenly they stop talking to you
everyone leaves
no ones obligated to be around a genetic garbage ‘jeet
i knew from a young age that being curry was a big failo too
those “which race wouldn’t you date?” videos
every time someone said “indians”
i don’t have anything or anyone
im tired
the highschool experience
the memories
the flirting
the friend groups
the drama
the parties
i never had any of it because i never even met the base threshold for it
not even the base threshold for a friend or a friend group
i never had female friends either
never met that threshold too
just being curry is already a big failo to most people
not just that but how incredibly short i am
not like my environment was the best too
it wasn’t the big “american highschool”
no diversity, no social structure, nothing, really small school where the funding is short
doesn’t even have its own sports team
i spent majority of my youth in the online world
especially that stupid purple app
roblox too where i felt some sort of ‘belonging’ for some of those factions people made
anything that didn’t involve my face or my reality
i poured so much of myself into online shit because my subconscious refused to admit the truth
i never got to have something normal
never even got close
i was coping through pixels on a screen because real life never gave me a chance
funny thing is
none of it mattered
you tell your online friends you’re curry
and suddenly they stop talking to you
everyone leaves
no ones obligated to be around a genetic garbage ‘jeet
i knew from a young age that being curry was a big failo too
those “which race wouldn’t you date?” videos
every time someone said “indians”
i don’t have anything or anyone
im tired
